Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Moments.


"And one on the way! These are the best days of your life." Just a simple 13 words spoken to me as I pushed my 3 year old through the grocery store. Little did that elderly gentleman know that, I truly believe those words. 




33 weeks pregnant with our fourth daughter and I'm still amazed by each day and each moment I have with my daughters. It was only 9 years ago that our journey to grow our family started. Married for 2 years but, feeling the need to start a family strongly. Something telling me that it wasn't going to be the easiest journey for us. 

I was right, almost 2 years is what it took to finally get the "positive" we we had been praying for. Those moments are hidden back in posts that I have long forgotten about but, the pain still feels fresh. 7 years ago we continued our journey, this time with new obstacles, but a bit more hope of giving our sweet girl a sibling. A year and a half and another morning sickness filled pregnancy brought her the sister we'd been waiting on. 

Baby number 3 was different. We knew the routine and were more relaxed through the journey. This trip was shorter, the pregnancy just as full of morning sickness but worth every moment, when we had our sweet nearly Christmas baby join us. For a couple years it felt like our family was where it needed to be. Sometimes I quietly wondered if that was it for us, if I felt like my family was finally done growing? 

Once I thought I could say it out loud, I found myself quickly corrected. This wasn't right, my family wasn't complete, I couldn't just move on and push this feeling away. So again we found ourselves on maybe our most difficult journey. The twists and turns this time hurt in an entirely new way. I wanted to give up, didn't think I could keep going, but knew that I couldn't give up hope on this baby. Sure enough, many months & tears later we the "positive" was finally ours. 

Seeing baby number 4's heartbeat at my first ultrasound absolutely made every moment of this journey to conceive worth it. During a trip to the ER just past 12 weeks I was oddly calm, just having this feeling that our sweet baby would be fine. Jump to 16 weeks, when doctor was surprised that baby number 4 was another girl, our fourth. There wasn't an ounce of sadness to be found from me. My baby was growing and healthy and she was going to be perfect just like her sisters.

This pregnancy has been a different whirlwind, but nonetheless amazing. I go to bed and wake up with 3 sweet girls wanting to curl up and talk to baby. I have a wonderful husband, who has made sure he has kept us financially supported so I am able to stay home and raise our daughters. I've been there for everything with them. I've witnessed every first. I am the first one they see in the morning and the last one to steal a kiss at night. 

My days might be hard at times, each one comes with a different struggle, but I wouldn't change any of it. I learn from the constantly. They make me a better, stronger person. These really are the best days of my life, and I know they're only about to get better.


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Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Distractions. Hopes. Goal.

*I've tried like 5 times to get the font larger, and it's not working so bear with me.*

I'm not one to sit down and write out goals, even at the start of the new year. I tried choosing a word for the year one time and totally forgot about it. This year isn't going to be any different & I'm fine with that. Last year I learned a lot about myself and I'm happy with it. 

I do have a list of hopes.

I hope to continue to step out of my comfort zone.
I hope to teach my girls new things, even if they are just simple around the house jobs.
I hope my marriage continues on this beautiful path it's taken lately.
I hope to learn a new thing or two.
I hope to take more adventures. 
I hope to sit down & make my blog grow again. 

Why just hopes and not goals? I don't know, just feels like it flows better for me. I like to stop thinking about my "goal" or "hope" and just be. I feel I grow better and my life has more beauty when I just let it be. Just go with the flow and make the changes I need as I see them.

 I sound crazy I know, but there's something about just being in the moment that I need. I've never been that way and the more I get to know myself the more I find that's what needs to happen. Just to be. Just to let life be my distraction. Get distracted by my girls laughing. Watch them play. Get lost listening to my husband and his goals. Just be there. Hmm... maybe I've found my goal.

Are you one for making goals?


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Monday, December 19, 2016

Lip Color.

This post is for all my makeup lovers!
Can your lip color do this?




I bet it can't! This was just under an hour after it was applied, but it does this right away also. In this video I'm wearing LipSense in Peach, topped with Glossy Gloss. If you haven't heard of LipSense yet let me tell you, it is awesome!

LipSense is unlike any conventional lipstick, stain or color. It is a long-lasting lip color, it sets in place,  is waterproof, does not kiss-off, smear-off, rub-off or budge-off for up to 18 hours! There are over 70 gorgeous shades! Nudes and neutrals, bold pops of pinks, purples, browns and reds. One of my favorite parts is that you can layer the colors to make your own unique lip color! How awesome is that! If you have questions feel free to post them down in the comments! 

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Tuesday, December 6, 2016

Addiction.

 I've always been addicted to buying books. So is my husband, makes for shelves full of books here. I tend to follow people on Goodreads and steal their favorite books.

     

Lately I've been into picking up cook books mostly. I've recently picked up:

Skinny Suppers: 125 Lightened-Up, Healthier Meals for Your Family by Brooke Griffin

Skinnytaste Fast & Slow: Knockout Quick-Fix & Slow Cooker Recipes by Gina Homolka
The Skinnytaste Cookbook: Light on Calories, Big on Flavor by Gina Homolka
And let me tell you! I'm in love! I can't wait to try more, I've filled this entire week with recipes from them! I can't wait to let you know how everything went! I'm still looking for more recommendations on good cookbooks or blogs to follow! Leave your favorites below!


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Monday, December 5, 2016

Ready... or not??

I just sat there with a pen and notebook next to me. The only notebook in our house that had more than a couple empty pages.  Purple ink (because its a favorite color around here) covers one page full of school information for my big Kindergartner. How were we there already?

Typical mom thought right? I've seen post after post about "their First Day", and how "I cried in the car", not realizing how fast our big moment is approaching. In August my oldest started Kindergarten. I was ready. Not in the typical "they are driving me crazy" or "I'm so ready to have time without them" type way. There were a lot of big changes happening in our life.

Our Kindergartner started school with kids she's never seen before, not even one was a familiar face. There wasn't a neighborhood carpool, or the excitement of seeing a neighbor/church friend in class- at least not at first.

Just weeks after our 5 year old started school we packed up our first home and moved to our next step. Though we didn't move very far, just to the next city over, and only a couple main roads our lives changed.

We closed one chapter and started another. And that is why I was ready for my oldest to go to Kindergarten.



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