I went to the Endocronologist (sp? sorry too lazy to look it up) yesterday. He was a really really sweet guy. The appointment was perfect. He asked so many questions and answered question before I even had them. I go back for blood work on the 10th day #6 of my next cycle, he says it's a possibility that I have PCOS. It's nice to hear that, even though its just a possibility and even if it is true it is the thing thats makin it hard to get pregnant. I love having an idea. I was sick of having everyone tell me they didn't know what was wrong. After bloodwork I'll go back Monday the 19th to talk to him about the results and possible treatment for whatever the case is.

In other news, I started a new job yesterday. I work at an in home daycare. I love it! There were 9 kids today for the two hours that I was there, we'll see what tomorrow brings. The couple that I work with and for are so sweet. She said she would work with dr's appointments and whatever I needed to make sure I got plenty of hours but that I also had time to get to those very important appointments!

This month is going to be a good one. Well this coming one. :)

So its another lovely monday here in the office. I'm finally motivated to get some studying done, for my Philosophy exam on Wednesday. So what does this have to do with TTC? Well nothing actually. I decided I needed to throw some more life stories into my blog. i need to blog more and find interesting things to blog about, maybe that's why I currently have 0 comments and 0 followers. I need to start finding people.

So today is Cycle Day 12. I think we have officially given up on trying this cycle. With the bloodwork being all over the place and what not it seems like there is no hope this time around, and frankly I am fine with that. I'm just wanting to wait to see what the Endo. says hopefully I'll get a phone call on Tuesday, if not Wednesday, that would be great, but I know it will most likely be Thursday. I'm not sure what to expect, it's hard finding any answers on the internet about elevated progesterone levels, I mean yeah, you can look it up and you'll find plenty about menopause. Not exactly the articles I'm looking for, so I guess I just have to wait it out.

My BIL's wife is pregnant, and my SIL is ready to start trying after her husband gets back from basic or whatever, I don't even remember what he's doing anymore, I know he is in Virginia and thats about it. I know she'll get pregnant before us. It's just our luck it seems. Honestly they are one couple that do not need to have anymore kids, they can't even control the two kids that they have now, it'll only get worse when she's pregnant. (She's diabetic and an emotional wreck and has hard pregnancies due to that apparently. Thank goodness I wasn't around when she was pregnant.) I'm ready to hear the news from them. He'll be back a few days before my birthday, which falls on Easter this year. And I know in May we'll find out. It's just how it'll happen. I'll end up eating chocolate til no tomorrow and watching sad movies with my fur baby Scout. Oh well. At least I'm prepared.

I just don't know how well the baby shower is going to go next Sunday. My cousin got a 16 year old pregnant he's 21, and they're married now and she's having a little girl. Wonderful. He just barely got a job and they live with his mom. Gosh I wish I could be happy for them for more than just a second I'm just not sure how I can handle the shower. I don't know if I'll end up going. It all depends on what happens this week. Maybe I'll find a way out of it. Hopefully.

Well I just had to clear my mind before I could get back to studying. I'll be back again soon.

Disappointment...

So I went to my appointment yesterday, got there 5 minutes early, signed in and sat and waited... about 5 minutes later I get called back... only to get my first set of bad news... I gained weight! BLAH! I was down to 138 and now I'm up to 147.... WTF!? Oh well I still fit in my "skinny"clothes so I worked through that... then the next fun part... I sat and waited for 40 MINUTES before anyone came in! It was my gyno... why is she here? I was supposed to meet with the OB.... oh joy... this is our conversation....

her: So there was a misunderstanding... you're not supposed to be here today....
my thoughts: WTF?!
her: well the nurse misread my note, it said "I need to consult with Dr. *******" and she took it as "you needing to consult with the Dr."
me: okay.
my thoughts: what a waste of my freakin time!
her: I haven't had a chance to talk to her about your test results til today. you're blank progesterone levels are slightly elevated.
me:okay
my thoughts: seriously. the b!tch on the phone told me that my levels were normal the second time around and that I needed to come in.
her: Dr. ******* is consulting with the endocronologist (sp?) which your results were just sent over but he doesn't work fridays so you'll hear back from us prob tuesday or wednesday...
me: oh okay...
her: we'll refund your co-pay. thanks, and sorry again....
me: it's fine.

NOW WHAT THE HECK!??!?!?! I had my time wasted, to find out that a.) I wasn't supposed to be there and b.) nurse ding bat gave me the wrong info about my bloodwork!?

Well I then stood at the front counter waiting for nurse ding bat #2 to refund my money! Well of course there has to be a pregnant lady in front of me, they decided to schedule a zillion appointments for her and kept messing up on her due date... I'm already ticked on hurt by now, this is the last thing I want to deal with, so I eventually go sit down with my sister and wait another 15 minutes!

In the end I'm ticked. I don't know what's going on really, no one is really talking about it, which is good and bad, I'd rather have the truth from the endo. instead of a guess from my dr. But I'll have to wait til Wednesday to get results, most likely thursday, then I'll have to schedule an appointment which is another week out WTH!? but at least I'll be closer to my period by then so it'll be a start of a new cycle and maybe just maybe, keep your fingers crossed, they'll be able to help.

Let's start with the phone call from last Wednesday. I called the office again for test results and everything came back normal for my bloodwork, and the nurse rambled off the doctors notes which I think I heard progesterone and some sort of measurement with it, and I of course confused, said... "so what does that mean?" and she quickly said "sounds like you make a follow up with the OB and she'll help you from there." Well it took almost half an hour for them to find a place to stick me. I was thinkin oh crap, this is going to be almost a month out like the last time, but nope! I go in tomorrow. Only an 8 day wait, not too shabby :)

I can't wait to hear what she has to say, I wish today would go by faster. I wish my honey could be sitting out in the waiting room, but he has work, so I'm dragging along my younger sister Quack. (I'm sure you know thats not her real name, but the nick name came from her trying to teach my nephew what a chicken says and well she said quack. end of story.) It's nice knowing I have some support from my family.

Of my 6 siblings 4 of them have a fair idea of whats going on and that we're trying, and of course my mom, but no one else! The SIL used to know, like a year ago we talked and maybe a few months ago, but i don't give her details and never again will I. Let's just say she's a person on that list of disliking right now. It's quite frustrating. Sunday we were invited and had to RSVP for a birthday dinner for my honey's younger sister, well we drove 20 mins and then found out we had to pay $30 to eat crappy food (i don't like buffets) and then we were completely ignored besides the following conversation....

MIL: I need a granddaughter, I have all grandsons. You guys need to give me a granddaughter... (then she turns to my honey's brother and his wife) Maybe you guys are having a girl this time.

Then the questions that got everyone's attention from my wonderful brother in law... "When are you guys going to have kids?" I just nicely bit the inside of my cheek and gave my honey the "you'd better answer them or I'll strangle one of them looks" and he replied perfectly..."you know what, we'll have kids when we're ready too, we're not in a hurry, we can have them at 30, 40 whenever in the heck we want." and that my friends shut everyone up. I wanted to high five him and what not, but I figured it wasn't appropriate and would kinda get a rise of some people.

I started making bibs and burp cloths yesterday, I made a ton! I went and bought $1 squares of fabric from wal mart and $1 sheet, and I can make 2 bibs and 1 burp cloth from the square and the sheet well is still being used, I'll have 24 bibs and 12 burp cloths when I'm done... or more, I didn't completely count all them. Just a quick guess.

p.s. if anyone reads this, it'd be nice to get a comment once in a while, or have a follower. I don't have either. I know I'm not the most interesting person, but I'm sure I can work on it with some encouragement! :)

NORMAL

YAY! The SA came back and NORMAL!!! Now the Dr. never actually called to tell me, I found the results on my insurance's website thing. I feel so0o0o0o0o0o0o0o0o much better!!! I know that means its me, but I'm perfectly fine with that! I know it can be fixed and I'm starting the time over for us trying to get pregnant, I'm thinking a year. It'll give us time to get pregnant, bake and hopefully have a baby. If not it'd be nice to at least be pregnant a year from now. Trying to stay postive!

Things came back high.

Around 10 this morning I called my OB/GYN for my bloodwork results. Of course they were there but the Dr hadn't had a chance to look at them yet. Well they called. I get to go in tomorrow after a fast of 12 hours. Well I believe I fasted before my first set of bloodwork. Oh well if its what they want I'll do it. They said some levels were high, not sure what ones or what that means.



This kinda kicked my day down a notch. I'm not disappointed or overly sad, nothing like that, just a slight worry. I slight hope that it was just a mistake. I'm just glad that they called back and that I can go in tomorrow on my day off and get it done. I just wish I knew what they were lookin for.

Amazing :)

Today I went in and officially talked to my wonderful gyno. I love her. My last Dr. was cold and heartless it appeared, and she was absolutely amazing. I was so nervous, I woke up quite a few times this morning, and by the time 5:00 am came, I was up in fear of missing out on my appointment.

I brought my wonderful husband with me and it was great knowing he was sitting out in the waiting room to support me. My doctor was so sweet, she was thorough and answered any questions before I even had the chance to ask. I got my annual check up and 5 vials of blood drawn. Can't wait to call on Thursday to get the results back. Mr. S has to give a "sample" and drop it off this week. I'm thinkin it'll be our date on Saturday morning. I'm not looking forward to the drive though, they say to have it there between 30 & 60 mins of you doing it but the drive is quite long maybe 20 mins itself... hopefully we make it in time.

Today was so nice, I feel tons better, my arm is sore from the Gardasil (sp) shot, but that's fine by me. I can't wait to get the results and get started on the path with the dr to getting pregnant.

With Love,

Mrs. S