Cycle day... Ummm 14! (Had to check the phone's calendar for that!) So let's start! I started trying to take the metformin again this cycle and it still makes me sick if I even think about taking more than one! I have my appointment on June 7th, but I'm having to rescheduel that to make sure TriCare is up and running! I'm worried what the Dr. will say, I'm trying though, I just can't function if I'm up holding on to the toilet all night, or wanting to die all day. -- I work at an in home daycare, and have at least 8 kids under 5 a day, and there is no way I can feel even the tiny bit awful while I'm here or the kids would eat me alive!!--

Never finished this post but its at least a brief idea of what was going on that day.

A beautiful monday! Besides being called into work, early to cover the other girls shift! Today is CD4, its great to finally be nearly cramp free! I'm going to start taking the metformin again today, only 1 pill each day this week though so I can get my body used to it! I'm excited for this cycle, I have high hopes that this could be the one! (If not next time, I just know its getting close!) Skyler should be signed in this week, and we'll have insurance! Yay!

Now to vent a little! My honey's family is being ridiculous! They are making up lies about skyler and then his older sister of course tried to smooth it over to save herself because she said somethin too! Well he eventually called her and let her tell her side and he said he felt that she said something and he's still hurt and she told him " sounds like someone is poisoning you" WTH?! Who says that?! Grr... Oh well her loss!

So my period ended up starting Friday which for a change didn't bother me at all! It was nice to know my body is still working fairly well. The cramps were ridiculous though!! I'm glad that part is over... Today is now CD3, which is a step closer to us getting pregnant! We'll be getting our future little one's crib soon! (My brother's little boy has a bed now so we get the crib!!) I can't wait to start putting it together, I know we aren't pregnant and who knows how long it'll take but when it does happen I want our baby to have a beautiful nursery to call their own. Not sure if I posted that my honey lost his job, well we're still looking and we should be back into the military this week so we'll at least have insurance then I want to make an appointment to ask about these horrific cramps I experience! How's everyone else doing? I'll try to get on my computer later and leave some comments, I'm trying to do better at the blogging thing,it'll be a way to journal my thoughts and feelings as we take the bumpy LONG road to having a baby!

Very Bad Blogger

I've started to drift away again, I don't know why writing usually makes me feel much much better. Maybe because I don't have ANY followers at this point. Well I'm at work right now so I'm on my phone so forgive this post for any spelling issues or any other issues it might have. I believe last time I posted was before my follow-up appointment (April 19th). Well Dr. W said he believes I have PCOS, which does make sense of quite a few things. He prescribed me Metformin (4x a day-- don't remember the mg right now). I started taking 1 that night and threw up 23 times! Needless to say I was done with those stinkin pills but they said to try again friday. Friday I tried them again and was fine and slowly worked up to I believe 3 a day and then on the 2nd started throwing up again. And stopped taking them to relax and figured on the 6th when my period would start I would take them again. Well today is the 13th and no period yet. Took a test the 8th and negative, took a test yesterday and still negative, but no normal period is going to start signs. I started the metformin yesterday and only took two to ease back in and two today so far, maybe I can make it three. I'm keeping the 5 or so pounds off that I lost which is nice, haven't really been bloated at all til yesterday after I took those pills (seems like I bloat after I eat and it goes away then I get hungry and bloat again) maybe TMI right here but usually a few days if not a week before my period everything down there starts to dry up and not dry at all even more non-dry than before!

So for a quick other life update-- my 16 year old sister is pregnant, the military is taking us in loops, and my honey's family has crossed a line and it will take a while to mend things. Also I'm going to try and be more positive about everything.