21 weeks!

How far along? 21 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Little Miss is the length of a banana or a carrot. 10.5 inches and 12.5 ounces...The Little Miss grew about 4 inches this week!!

Weight Gain? Haven't weighed myself in some time now, I'll have to remember to post after my 22 week appointment with some weight info.

Maternity clothes? Sometimes!

Stretch marks? Nope.

Belly button in or out? Still in but lookin' funny!

Sleep? Has been better the last few days! I wake up, quite a bit, last night I may have actually woken up to feel her kick a couple times!

Foods I am loving? Breakfast food and chocolate!

Foods I am hating? Mexican, greasy fast food stuff.

Best moment this week? Finding out the gender! And possibly feeling her move!


Movement? I think so! But there hasn't been a definite that's her! movement yet. Hope that makes sense.

Symptoms? Nausea and vomiting. Still need my zofran once a day.

Gender? A LITTLE GIRL!!

What I miss? Nothing :)

What I'm looking forward to? Working on her room! Feeling her move!

Weekly Wisdom: Still don't trust a sneeze or a cough.. it could end badly.

Milestone: 21 weeks!

Emotions: All over the place :)

Your baby now weighs about three-quarters of a pound and is approximately 10 1/2 inches long — the length of a carrot. You may soon feel like she's practicing martial arts as her initial fluttering movements turn into full-fledged kicks and nudges. You may also discover a pattern to her activity as you get to know her better. In other developments, your baby's eyebrows and lids are present now, and

Mother-Daughter Relationship...

First off, I love my mom, she's been there for me a lot. Everyone has their problems also, and my mom and myself included fit this part. Growing up was wonderful, but I have noticed a bunch of things that just weren't right, or could have been better. Lets start with a little background, I'll try and keep this short but who knows where this will go.

My grandmother didn't want my mom, my mother was very close to my grandfather and that made my grandma jealous. She tried to give her away and was very abusive mentally and physically. (Their relationship improved after my mom had me, I was the first grand-daughter on my mother's side, strange that a baby girl would break the hate bit). Now I know for a fact this affected my mother greatly. I also know my mother did damage to herself, she was a model and on the track team (needless to say I'm sure, that keeping her appearance up was a huge deal) now this has come back to affect my sisters and I. With the help of my wonderful husband I'm slowly letting "the number" (weight) thing go. I had a very hard time at first when I couldn't stop gaining weight no matter what I did, then when I lost it all it wasn't enough, and now that I'm pregnant, though I haven't gained more than 5 lbs in the last 5 months, I sometimes feel gross. It's an awful thing, and I am so glad Skyler understands me.

My mother also needs to be needed, and if you don't need her, you're not welcome to be around. She loves it when Skyler is gone and I'm sick so she can take care of me, but if I'm doing great and don't need help its pretty much like screw you. I love her, and I know that she doesn't recognize this, (I've talked to her plenty and to my dad and we just accept that she doesn't know).

I know I won't be like my mom or her mother, I know I can see the issues but I have still always wanted a little girl to prove that I can be better than them. That I can have a better relationship. I just can't help but wonder what this little girl will be like, and if I'll be able to give her everything she deserves. Guess I can't stop worrying about her already...

I know this wasn't the most pleasant post lately but I want to make sure I get that out there, see it in writing, know that I've told people of my goal, let them know I recognize problems in my own family when it comes to mother-daughter relationships.

Hope everyone is doing well!

Yesterday...

I still can't believe yesterday already came and went. I remember scheduling the appointment at the front desk and thinking, "Holy Sh!t! that's a way off!", then it started to creep up on me. Soon it was the night before. And then the morning of. Then we were actually there. Yesterday was our 20 week anatomy scan ( I think thats what they call it). I couldn't sleep the night before, I was anxious the morning of, I was a mess, why? I'll tell ya why.

It all starts back in June, we still aren't pregnant and are heartbroken. I went to my parents house and my mom goes to tell me that she got a strange phone call from my grandmother not too long before I showed up. She goes on to say that my grandfather (who passed away 25 years ago) told my grandmother "Tell her to just relax, don't be so stressed, I'm holding a beautiful little girl who wants to be there with her." Now I know that sounds crazy, but heres a little background on my grandparents, they were married very young and my grandfather died of bone cancer before I was born, not too long after my parents met. He was and still is such a big part of my family's life. Now I definitely believe that there are spirits watching us, too many things have happened in my life and the lives of those around me to say that we're the only ones watching out for us. Well a few weeks after this phone call, I found out I was pregnant.

Well I'm sure you can guess that I've just had this feeling this baby was a girl. Well I do want a girl, I want to make sure her relationship with me is different but the same as the one I have with my mother (that's a whole other post, probably the post after this). My husband's siblings all have boys, (His oldest sister is expecting a girl in December), and the only biological grandchild my parents have is a little boy, they have 2 girls and a boy from an adopted son, and a boy from the other adopted son, so needless to say there are a lot of boys!

I've just been drawn to girl stuff. I absolutely love it. I've always felt... well girl. We have a little boy's name picked out and when I talk about him (as a future child) thats exactly what I feel that he's not ready to be here with us yet. And sure enough our ultrasound tech said girl! She's beautiful, just a normal black and white ultrasound but it was beautiful. Now for all the details of the appointment... I know this post is getting long but I'm up way early and all alone so it's posting time!

Baby is measuring between the 12th & 17th of March.

Her guess weight is 12 oz, which makes her weigh as much as a 22 week baby. :)

She loves to relax, she didn't move much but her feet at the appointment and her hand once.

She kept her legs crossed the whole time, with a hand on her head and one on her belly! She didn't want the tech to have a spread-eagle view of her parts, but she said she's seen enough that she would definitely say girl, nothing extra was there! :)

** I know, it was a for sure shot, but I don't feel like I need to go get another ultrasound done at one of those places, I don't feel unsure and I keep praying about it, keep asking if I need to go see that its little boy and not little girl and nothing. Though Skyler does want to go do the 3d or 4d ultrasound just to see baby girl again :)! **

All in all it was perfect. I can't wait to meet her!

20 Weeks!

How far along? 20 Weeks!! Half way!

Baby's size? Baby Summers is the size of a cantaloupe. 6.5 inches and 10.5 ounces...according to thebump.com.

Weight Gain? 2 lbs

Maternity clothes? Sometimes, depends on the day :)

Stretch marks? Nope.

Belly button in or out? Still in but after I eat it definitely starts to pop more!

Sleep?Blah, I really wonder where my energy comes from. I don't sleep at night, well I'm sure I sleep just not sure how much, I feel like I'm awake every few minutes.

Foods I am loving? Ummm... I think I can eat almost anything. Subs the last couple days though.

Foods I am hating? Anything that smells too strong.

Best moment this week? Hitting the half way mark!

Movement? I don't think I feel anything yet.

Symptoms? Same as always, constant sick stomach, I tried to go with out taking my Zofran before bed Tuesday night and woke up the next morning and couldn't stop throwing up, the next few days after that I didn't feel the same, missing that one pill really messed up my stomach.

Gender? We find out at 20 weeks 5 days! So only less than 4 days til the reveal!!

What I miss? I love being pregnant!

What I'm looking forward to? Feeling the baby move! Finding out the gender!!!

Weekly Wisdom: Don't sneeze or cough with a full bladder.

Milestone: Being half way through until the baby comes!!

Emotions:
Definitely been all over the place the last week. I've lost it :)


Your baby weighs about 10 1/2 ounces now. He's also around 6 1/2 inches long from head to bottom and about 10 inches from head to heel — the length of a banana. (For the first 20 weeks, when a baby's legs are curled up against his torso and hard to measure, measurements are taken from the top of his head to his bottom — the "crown to rump" measurement. After 20 weeks, he's measured from head to toe.)


He's swallowing more these days, which is good practice for his digestive system. He's also producing meconium, a black, sticky by-product of digestion. This gooey substance will accumulate in his bowels, and you'll see it in his first soiled diaper (some babies pass meconium in the womb or during delivery).

17 Week Update!

How far along? 17 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Baby Summer's is the size of an onion! About 5 inches and 6 ounces. Baby gained an ounce and half this week!!

Weight Gain? At my 16 week check up I had finally reached 146.3 meaning I've finally gained weight compared to my pre-pregnancy weight, a whole pound!

Maternity clothes? Definitely more comfortable to wear but I can still wear regular shirts and squeeze into my jeans but I do love my maternity pants a whole lot more than and other jeans I have .

Stretch marks? No.

Belly button in or out? Still in, but imore shallow than it was pre-pregnancy.

Sleep? Not the best week for sleep, I've had a lot back and hip pain ( I was born with my hips out of place so they had to grind them back in and so 20 years later I'm still dealing with my hips grinding and popping out of place so it'll be interesting to see how this pregnancy goes) which keeps me up and every time I have to move I have to grab on to Skyler to help roll to the other side.

Foods I am loving? I could nearly eat anything this week.

Foods I am hating? Ummm... greasy stuff just the thought of it makes my stomach turn.

Best moment this week? Hearing Baby Summer's heartbeat on Monday was wonderful!

Movement? I don't know, my Dr. did say that most likely wouldn't happen until 20 weeks for me. I'd definitely love to feel so movement though.

Symptoms? Nausea and still vomiting.

Gender? Oct. 28th is the big day!

What I miss? Nothing love being pregnant. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Movement and gender! Hopefully start feeling better

Weekly Wisdom: Cant think of anything right now.

Milestone: Making it to 17 weeks pregnant!!

Emotions: Haven't really seen much change in my emotions though if my energy is running low and you want me to keep doing stuff I'll get very cranky.

Your baby's skeleton is changing from soft cartilage to bone, and the umbilical cord — her lifeline to the placenta — is growing stronger and thicker. Your baby weighs 5 ounces now (about as much as a turnip), and she's around 5 inches long from head to bottom. She can move her joints, and her sweat glands are starting to develop.

16 Week Appointment.

Last Monday was my 16 week appointment, nothing exciting the nurse was extremely rude though. She said you're 15 w4d and of course I said no were 16w2d, (very nicely) and she was like well I'm going off of what the computer says. So I told her well he actually changed it by 5 days, so we always go off the new one, (I did this with my other nurse last appointment and she was like, yup he sure did!) but this nurse was awful and decided to lecture us and say I had to get the flu shot, which she is not very friendly at doing either.

My doctor came in and he was wonderful, explained why I had the flu shot, and we got to hear Baby Summer's heartbeat (didn't get a measurement though) and we planned my 18 week blood work (oct 11) and the 20 week ultrasound(Oct 28!)!!! Can't wait to go to either appointment, only 1 more week till the 18 week, then a break and its already time for the 20!! I was so glad it wasn't going to be a straight 4 week break between this appointment and the 20 week one. It's easier to deal with the time when its every 2 weeks. The 28th will be perfect, my husband's birthday is the 26th and my sister's is the 27th, so we'll all be together a lot that week and with halloween right after it'll be a great time to tell everyone!