I still can't believe yesterday already came and went. I remember scheduling the appointment at the front desk and thinking, "Holy Sh!t! that's a way off!", then it started to creep up on me. Soon it was the night before. And then the morning of. Then we were actually there. Yesterday was our 20 week anatomy scan ( I think thats what they call it). I couldn't sleep the night before, I was anxious the morning of, I was a mess, why? I'll tell ya why.
It all starts back in June, we still aren't pregnant and are heartbroken. I went to my parents house and my mom goes to tell me that she got a strange phone call from my grandmother not too long before I showed up. She goes on to say that my grandfather (who passed away 25 years ago) told my grandmother "Tell her to just relax, don't be so stressed, I'm holding a beautiful little girl who wants to be there with her." Now I know that sounds crazy, but heres a little background on my grandparents, they were married very young and my grandfather died of bone cancer before I was born, not too long after my parents met. He was and still is such a big part of my family's life. Now I definitely believe that there are spirits watching us, too many things have happened in my life and the lives of those around me to say that we're the only ones watching out for us. Well a few weeks after this phone call, I found out I was pregnant.
Well I'm sure you can guess that I've just had this feeling this baby was a girl. Well I do want a girl, I want to make sure her relationship with me is different but the same as the one I have with my mother (that's a whole other post, probably the post after this). My husband's siblings all have boys, (His oldest sister is expecting a girl in December), and the only biological grandchild my parents have is a little boy, they have 2 girls and a boy from an adopted son, and a boy from the other adopted son, so needless to say there are a lot of boys!
I've just been drawn to girl stuff. I absolutely love it. I've always felt... well girl. We have a little boy's name picked out and when I talk about him (as a future child) thats exactly what I feel that he's not ready to be here with us yet. And sure enough our ultrasound tech said girl! She's beautiful, just a normal black and white ultrasound but it was beautiful. Now for all the details of the appointment... I know this post is getting long but I'm up way early and all alone so it's posting time!
Baby is measuring between the 12th & 17th of March.
Her guess weight is 12 oz, which makes her weigh as much as a 22 week baby. :)
She loves to relax, she didn't move much but her feet at the appointment and her hand once.
She kept her legs crossed the whole time, with a hand on her head and one on her belly! She didn't want the tech to have a spread-eagle view of her parts, but she said she's seen enough that she would definitely say girl, nothing extra was there! :)
** I know, it was a for sure shot, but I don't feel like I need to go get another ultrasound done at one of those places, I don't feel unsure and I keep praying about it, keep asking if I need to go see that its little boy and not little girl and nothing. Though Skyler does want to go do the 3d or 4d ultrasound just to see baby girl again :)! **
All in all it was perfect. I can't wait to meet her!