Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Part 1 of my Ramblings...

I can't believe this Saturday I will be 30 weeks! I can't believe how fast time has gone this pregnancy. I swear it was just yesterday that we got the positive. The nesting problem... yup I'm calling it a problem, and if you're pregnant, close to the end... and reading this you'll understand its a problem... has finally kicked in. I NEED to get things done, and not just a few things... EVERYTHING!!! Its this problem you see, I don't want to be not prepared. I want to be prepare
d by 35 weeks, meaning I have about 5 weeks to get EVERYTHING done. We may be buying her stroller/carseat combo tomorrow. We will most definitely registering at babies-r-us, so I can get my $10 gift card. I will be painting her name so I can start decorating the letters and hang the up soon. I have so much to do, I think I'll just type my list up right now....

This must be bought, obviously its a must have.

...Hospital Bag...
I want this to be ready, I'm not going to have some family member running around looking through my stuff to find me stuff while I'm in the hospital having Abigail, my sister-in-law, Dena, had me do this for BOTH of her babies... she's insane... I couldn't not have it ready...

all my laundry needs to be caught up with and I need to buy some laundry soap for her stuff... also laundry bags & hooks for her room

Needs to be bought
In the nursery still needs painted scraped off it and needs to be washed down oh and a swiffer needs to be bought

bulbs need to be bought for nursery... and the light fixture needs to be taken down and steam cleaned

Need to be bought for her clothes

...Breast Pump...
This will be a post of it's own... but one needs to be found

For her socks and such need to be bought... trying to make it really organized so it's easier for Daddy to get her ready
when he has her and I'm napping or being lazy

Need to be cleaned...

Need to be bought for her room...or even made
for baby stuff of course, and this will be done at at least one store tomorrow. That's a start, I didn't even register for our wedding... but Babies-R-Us has that cool "if you don't get what you want off your list, after baby comes you get 10% off it" deal... so I may go register crazy tomorrow... just in case I want something at 10% off after she comes.

press ons, just painting... whatever I need to have them done and kept up on...I used to do my toe nails at least once a week to make sure they
looked decent and were clean I haven't done them in months... really... it's ridiculous

The nursery needs to have at least some decorations in it before she comes... I want her room cute...I know it won't
matter to anyone but me, but its something that NEEDS to happen.

this list is going to get pretty long and I'm getting sleepy so I'll call it a night for now... and this will be labeled Part 1...

Sunday, December 26, 2010


So guess freakin' what? No idea? Well, I'll give ya a couple of clues....

***Clue Number 1***

***Clue Number 2***

Maybe that makes sense to you but, there is a huge chance that only that makes sense to me. So I'll let ya in on the secret? Well you can't really call it a secret. But getting on Facebook today I noticed that another sister-in-law deleted me.


I really have no idea what that is about. She's 10 years older than me, and we haven't really ever talked, we talked through messages on facebook back for a week or so this October after Skyler's birthday (the 26th) she apologized for not making it for cupcakes, wanted to get together for her birthday (Nov 8 a Monday), I originally thought it was just her and I but she wanted the guys there too, well Skyler was working till 9 that night and the drive home would be an hour and a half so I emailed her the next day (saturday) and told her we couldn't but that we were free Thursday that week if she wanted to, and I never got a reply back.

Seriously this whole in-law thing is getting pretty f*ck!ng ridiculous. I haven't even done anything or really talked to any of them in the last few months.

Yesterday at Christmas we went to see my husband's family for dinner at 4. Went downstairs to see his mom, found out that they are moving in a month, and just forgot to tell us. (They'll now be closer to us...oh joy). Then Skyler told his mom "I didn't know Amber would be here, I thought thats why you were doing a breakfast and dinner and asked which one we'd be at." Well that started a "you need to make up with your sister, she's family" bull sh!t, mini lecture. This whole time I'm ready to have a melt down... I didn't go there for that. I just went so he could see his mom and step-dad for Christmas. Well we sat in the kitchen for dinner, his mom was there for a min, then his brother for a bit... then the kids were going to open presents, we decided to just leave since it was uncomfortable, and now as I'm typing this, Skyler tells me he thinks we were supposed to get stuff for his nephews, but his mom didn't say anything to us about it, so he felt bad about it. We left nicely, told his mom bye and he yelled a quick bye to his brother as we were leaving. We were there a whole hour.... and now today she isn't my friend on facebook? What is her deal?! What is with this family? What are your thoughts on the baby shower.. do I invite these 2 sister in laws in hopes of them not coming? Or what? I'm not sure....

Saturday, December 25, 2010

29 Weeks!!

How far along? 29 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Abigail is the size of a butternut squash! She is between 15-17 inches and weighs between 2.5-4 pounds!

Weight Gain? Will find out on the 3rd for sure but I'm guessing 20

Stretch marks? Nope!!

Belly button in or out? It mostly sticks out now... though you can catch it staying in...

Sleep? Been better the last couple days actually slept for more than just 1 hr intervals.

Foods I am loving? Tortillas (we made breakfast burritos today {Friday}),chocolate of course, cereal, toast, and peach tea.

Foods I am hating? Everything has its place on this list at one point during the day.

Best moment this week? Getting her crib, changing table & bedding!!! Her room is finally coming together... we finally found the rug we'll get her, its a play mat but it matches perfectly with her bedding.

Movement? Yes!

Symptoms? Constipation, heartburn, when I get full I feel like my belly is stretched ! Leg cramps, stretching pains, rib pain hip pain, back is killing from holding up this belly and these gigantic boobs! Oh and Braxton Hicks. Especially yesterday while I was going crazy cleaning the house... so I guess nesting is a new symptom this week.

Gender? GIRL!!

What I miss? Absolutely nothing!!

What I'm looking forward to? All the Christmas Presents we'll be getting for her... getting more stuff for her nursery...our 30 week appointment

Weekly Wisdom:Take it easy :)

Milestone: This will be our last week in the 20's!! Only 11 weeks till her due date!

Emotions: Excited! Its finally feeling like she'll be here soon! I'm so glad that we're moving along so well now in the nursery... I'll have to post pics of that soon... I need to put up some of the decorations first though...Curious (thats going to be an emotion today if it isn't) to when she'll be here... I've constantly had dreams and feelings like she would come quite a bit early...I'm not sure if thats just a normal thought or if I'm being prepared mentally for it. As long as she is healthy I'm happy to have her whenever. Oh I was reading this week or last that if you have your baby at 28 weeks or 29 they have a 90% survival rate. I loved loved LOVED reading that.

Your baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel. His muscles and lungs are continuing to mature, and his head is growing bigger to make room for his developing brain. To meet his increasing nutritional demands, you'll need plenty of protein, vitamins C, folic acid, and iron. And because his bones are soaking up lots of calcium, be sure to drink your milk (or find another good source of calcium, such as cheese, yogurt, or enriched orange juice). This trimester, about 250 milligrams of calcium are deposited in your baby's hardening skeleton each day.

Tuesday, December 21, 2010


Just wanted to let ya know the crib and mattress are waiting to be picked up!! I get to get them tomorrow! Hopefully the changing table will be in too! So excited!!
And to end it all here are a few pictures at 28 weeks 2 days.

Sunday, December 19, 2010

X-mas lights

Last night we went to see the Christmas lights at Willard Bay. Skyler and I have always gone to see the lights together. We had already gone through Layton Park and Temple Square was too busy thanks to the David Archuletta (sp?) concert so we went somewhere new. It was wonderful to see my 2 year old nephew, Cadin, look at all the lights and get so excited over it all. I can't wait till next year. We will have a 9 month old! I didn't think that time would go that fast. It was crazy talking about her being so big when she isn't even here this Christmas.

Her crib, changing table, mattress, and bedding are on their way! Hopefully have the first few items by Wednesday so we can pick them up Thursday and set them up that night! The bedding said that it won't be here before the 24th, but will be here by the 29th, so we'll have it soon enough. We bought a night-light for her room today, it was $10 but its pretty! I can't wait to plug it in. I started making the list of things that need to be done/bought before she comes and its quite the long list but most of it will can be done pretty quickly.

The next big shopping item will be the stroller/car seat. I have a few picked out that I found at Babies-R-Us, so I need to use good ole mister froogle to figure out where I can get the best deal on those. We then need to buy the dresser. That thing is expensive! I can't believe it, but its obviously needed, not all her stuff can hang up in the closet or be put on her changing table.

I'm going to try and write little notes to miss Abigail before she comes while were in the process of preparing for her. So you'll see letters more often from me :)

Dear Abby,

Last night Daddy, Grandpa, Grandma, Uncle Steven, Cadin, Aunt B and I all went to see the lights at Willard Bay. This is the last time we will go as a family before you come. Daddy and I can't wait to have you part of our traditions.



Saturday, December 18, 2010

The X-mas Situation

This of course concerns the in-laws, I'm making it a quick as pleasant as possible post, I'm tired of the drama. Monday we got a text from SIL A saying she was finally home with the baby. I texted Skyler, asked if he was replying to her or if I needed to, he said I could and he was going to cut ties with her depending on her next response. So I quickly replied to her "Congrats", didn't want a huge problem to occur. Well I later heard from my husband that he cut off ties with her after asking if she deleted me on facebook, she said "yes, she shouldn't care she just talks shit on me anyway." I looked back 4 months worth of posts and nothing was ever about her.

So now we have the X-mas dilemma, his mom finally called last night left him a message that they were doing something at 4 on X-mas. Do we go? Won't it be awkward? I don't know what to expect.

28 Weeks... 7 months!!!

How far along? 28 Weeks!! 7 months! The 3rd Trimester!!

Baby's size? Abigail is over 2 lbs and 15 inches.

Weight Gain? Nothing this week still at a total of 16lbs

Stretch marks? Nope! Thank goodness.

Belly button in or out? Sticking out more often!

Sleep? Is still awful. Especially the last couple nights with my stomach getting sick again and hip pain.

Foods I am loving? Chocolate, peach tea, water, diet coke (a little sip here and there)

Foods I am hating? Everything.

Best moment this week? Ordering her crib, changing table, mattress, and bedding! We now have everything but the dresser on its way! The dresser will wait though.

Movement? Yes, she sure does like to dance and party in there.

Symptoms? Nausea still, heartburn started this Wednesday (it is not a friend), leg cramps, feeling a baby under my ribs, having to eat fiber bars to keep things going, leaking boobs again/still, braxton hicks-- I know they have to be them, I'm sure of it, they aren't awful but aren't pleasant.

Gender? GIRL!!

What I miss? Nothing! :)

What I'm looking forward to? Getting all the stuff we ordered, our 30 week check up on the 3rd with an ultrasound!!!, seeing what we got for Christmas!!

Weekly Wisdom: Take it slow and drink lots of fluids.

Milestone: 3rd trimester!!

Emotions: Doing wonderful! Finally have everything falling into place nursery wise was a big help in relaxing my mind and stomach--nerve wise.

By this week, your baby weighs two and a quarter pounds (like a Chinese cabbage) and measures 14.8 inches from the top of her head to her heels. She can blink her eyes, which now sport lashes. With her eyesight developing, she may be able to see the light that filters in through your womb. She's also developing billions of neurons in her brain and adding more body fat in preparation for life in the outside world.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

27 Weeks

These pictures are actually from 26 weeks I'll try and take more later
just glad that I actually took some and posted them for a change!

How far along?
27 Weeks!! Holy cow! Can't believe it! I think this is the beginning of the 3rd Trimester. I'm a little lazy at the moment and don't feel like looking it up :)

Baby's size? Little Miss is the size of an eggplant! About 13-14 1/2 inches and 1.5-2 lbs.

Weight Gain? At the doctors on Monday I had gained a total of 16lbs. Can't believe how much it's gone up!

Stretch marks? Nope, I check every night and morning.

Belly button in or out? As I write this it's out thanks to Miss Abigail and her bony body.

Sleep? Sleep is either amazing or awful. I have to be in bed for about 12-13 hours before I feel any sort of energy and even then I'm pretty tired.

Foods I am loving? PB&J sandwiches, oh and peach tea!

Foods I am hating? Mostly everything.

Best moment this week? Would probably be Wednesday night when she started moving like her normal self again.

Movement? Yes! She is moving all the time! All over the place it's a wonderful feeling! I love being able to push back and get a response!

Symptoms? Nausea of course, have I mentioned the my boobs have started leaking wth?!, kidding-they do leak but it's for a good cause, charlie horses... oh my heck! Those are painful.

Gender? A little girl!

What I miss? Nothing at all!

What I'm looking forward to? Reaching the 7 month mark next weekend, oh and Christmas, can't wait to see what we got for Abigail! Oh I get to order her bedding this week too! Hopefully I can order the crib soon!

Weekly Wisdom: If you feel like something is wrong just go to the doctors, and don't feel stupid if everything turns out to be perfectly fine, it's better to be safe then sorry!

Milestone: 3rd trimester!! I think its safe to say that, if its not till 28 weeks then I'm only a week early!

Emotions: Relieved, you can look at my Wednesday post and see what happened then. Excited to start putting her stuff in her nursery and to finally have a bedding picked out that with our Christmas money will be free. Scared we won't have her stuff all ready for her. Nervous that we're not ready. Just the normal stuff I guess.

This week, your baby weighs almost 2 pounds (like a head of cauliflower) and is about 14 1/2 inches long with her legs extended. She's sleeping and waking at regular intervals, opening and closing her eyes, and perhaps even sucking her fingers. With more brain tissue developing, your baby's brain is very active now. While her lungs are still immature, they would be capable of functioning — with a lot of medical help — if she were to be born now. Chalk up any tiny rhythmic movements you may be feeling to a case of baby hiccups, which may be common from now on. Each episode usually lasts only a few moments, and they don't bother her, so just relax and enjoy the tickle.

Thursday, December 9, 2010

A gift from Daddy


Today was quite an eventful day. Pardon the language but you scared the hell out of me! You didn't move much before bed last night and this morning only a few quick jabs from you and nothing. That's right, your normal busy body self wasn't busy at all. No movement from 8:30 am till 3 pm and after 2 glasses of orange juice through out the day, Grandma had me call Dr. M. Daddy knew everything would be fine but I was too worried. But as soon as Dr. M found your heartbeat you did 2 quick jabs. Then the nurse took us across to the other Dr.'s side and hooked me up to what they call "the machine". It just measured your heartbeat and any contractions. The whole time she was trying to get your heartbeat you kept moving and moving, but for the half hour she was gone you moved maybe 2 times that I could feel you. But Dr. M said that everything was perfectly fine and he'd see us again in January. You're finally starting to move around like you usually do, but any period of not moving scares me.

On to what Daddy did for you today. Daddy and Mommy don't have extra money to go out and buy fancy stuff, all our money goes into making your nursery the best place ever. Well Daddy got out of class early and went to the mall and bought us a gift. Daddy got a beautiful pearl necklace, bracelet and earring set for us, the bracelet is for you when you are big enough to wear it to church and special events. Daddy wants to buy you everything shiny and expensive, so I'm sure you'll have tons of special things from him, but this is the first thing Daddy has gotten for you, I haven't even gotten anything for you yet though I am crocheting baby booties to keep your little toes warm. We love you and can't wait till March so we can meet you.



Wednesday, December 8, 2010

The Train & The Vent

It's crazy to think that I've already been pregnant for 26 weeks and 4 days. I'm almost to the 7 month mark. Time is going by so fast. I love it but at the same time wish this pregnancy wasn't coming to the end so soon. I want to see Abigail more than anything and can't wait for her to be here and to put her in cute little dresses, but I feel that this pregnancy thing went by too fast. Does that make sense? I hope so. This Saturday will mark 27 weeks, with only 13 weeks left. I'm getting close to the end of the double digits week wise. Is this really possible already? I know everyone says that the end goes by so slow but I feel like its a speeding train that isn't slowing anywhere.

I need to vent about my in-laws for a moment. I'm realizing I need to be more positive about this whole situation so I will be trying my best to word this properly and kindly because who wants to read a post by a negative nancy? My sister-in-law A, the one I don't necessarily get a long with, has a planned c-section tonight, everyone has been told but me. (She sent out a mass text Monday and her father sent a text to Skyler last night.) I don't get it. Why can't I be told?

Also A & her little sister S want to throw me a baby shower, a week before Miss Abigail is due. I don't see that working out very well, and with some of the things going on I don't want to have a baby shower from them, so my sweet mom said she would invite Skyler's group of people over when she does my baby shower. I can't wait to go to my baby shower. It'll have people I love and people that support me there, and it'll also have people that I guess we'll say "should" be there.

Moving back to topic, I feel so left out of everything with Skyler's family. Not once since I've been pregnant have I gotten a phone call/text/email/comment/carrier pigeon asking how I'm doing. Asking if I need anything or just want to get out of the house. Everyone else that is or was pregnant this year have had people bending over backwards to make them happy and do stuff for them, why am I different? I want our relationship to be good, I know what its like having a parent hate the other side of the family growing up, and I didn't understand till I was older that their differences shouldn't have affected me so much. I should have been able to like them if I wanted to, and now I do. I have a great relationship with both sides of my family. After asking Skyler for advice on this subject he said I should keep trying. I don't know if I can. Its too hard. What to do? What to do?

Anyway, vent is over. I feel better knowing I wrote it nicely and got a lot of what I feel out. So whoever has read this thanks for letting me steal your eyes for a bit. Hope all is going well with you.

Monday, December 6, 2010

The Sugar Test

Today was the glucose test...the test where everyone complains about the drink. I too will be commenting on this drink right now. I woke up right in time to hurry and drink 50 g of the lemon lime flavored drink. The taste wasn't too bad, tasted just like flat sprite, then it hit my stomach, I wanted to barf. I needed to. I had to. But I didn't. I couldn't. I wasn't going to take the test again. I had to man up and keep it down. Abigail didn't seem to like it that much either, she's usually pretty active in the morning when I'm getting ready but after that drink she just chilled. My 26 w 2 d appointment informed me that I had gained 9 lbs in the last 4 weeks! WHAT THE HECK!? That's more than I gained in the first 22 weeks total! So now I'm up 16lbs with this pregnancy. Then the blood draw comes, I can handle that perfectly fine but this time my vein came out all bruised and puffy and still is. It still hurts after being drawn 11 hours ago! Then the kind doctor came in and measured me and said everything was great! I see him in 4 weeks for my 30w 2d appointment and at that point we'll have an ultrasound down to check on miss Abigail, and to check the placenta. This is my last 4 week appointment. After that the time between gets shorter and shorter. Anyway, this glucose drink is kicking my butt even now, I've tried milk a sandwich, an enchilada, a little ice cream, and nothing is making my stomach or my head feel better. This better wear off tonight. I want to have a nice rest. I would do this test every day if I had to, but it wouldn't be easy. Good news is my doctor never called me today, (I'm sure he said he'd call today if something was wrong with the test) so I'm pretty certain that means I passed my test!

Hope everyone is doing well!!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

26 Weeks!

How far along? 26 Weeks!!

Baby's size? She is the size of an eggplant! About 13-14 1/2 inches and 1.5-2 lbs.

Weight Gain? Will find out on Monday.

Stretch marks? Nope.

Belly button in or out? Depends on where Miss Abigail is laying

Sleep? Sleeping is awful!

Foods I am loving? Smothered Burritos from La Puente

Foods I am hating? Anything is hated at any point.

Best moment this week? Feeling her move around to Cadin talking!

Movement? Yes. But he can be a little booger. She will be moving up a storm and as soon as Skyler puts his hand on my belly or starts to watch for movement, she will stop moving!

Symptoms? Same as always

Gender? A LITTLE Girl!!

What I miss?Nothing at all!

What I'm looking forward to? The 3rd trimester, a baby shower (not happening till February), getting her crib and all the fun stuff for her nursery.

Weekly Wisdom: Take lots of breaks and drink lots of fluids

Milestone: Last week in the 2nd Trimester!

Emotions: Good :)

The network of nerves in your baby's ears is better developed and more sensitive than before. He may now be able to hear both your voice and your partner's as you chat with each other. He's inhaling and exhaling small amounts of amniotic fluid, which is essential for the development of his lungs. These so-called breathing movements are also good practice for when he's born and takes that first gulp of air. And he's continuing to put on baby fat. He now weighs about a pound and two-thirds and measures 14 inches (an English hothouse cucumber) from head to heel.

Friday, December 3, 2010

Always in the back of the mind....

Lately with the holidays coming up I've been thinking about where my husband and I were the last 4 years that we've done holidays together. The first year we had been officially dating for about a week when Christmas came, the next year we'd been married for 4 months and we're buying a house. The third year we'd been trying for almost a year and of course AF shows up on Christmas day right as I get to meet my cousin's (who is 6 months older than me so he was 21) 15 year old pregnant fiancée! Talk about a not very unemotional holiday. This year we have Miss Abigail Cheyenne moving and kicking away. Growing stronger and getting closer to being here with us.

Which got me to thinking, I haven't really had that oh my gosh we're pregnant moment yet. I know she's in there, I feel her, she has a name her nursery is painted, clothes are being bought by my mother and sisters, I'm looking at all the stuff we need i.e. crib, changing table, sheets... I'm 26 weeks tomorrow. Why don't I feel pregnant? Why am I still jealous of pregnant people and still worried that this is all a dream and could end at any point? I find it crazy that 18 months of trying has done so much damage. I feel like I'm the only one that feels like this. I don't think anyone understands. No one. I think that makes family get together party things a hard thing for me to go to. Knowing that none of the people that are pregnant there and the one that just had her baby didn't have to try. They don't know what its like to wonder if you'll ever have the experience of being pregnant. I'd have given anything any day to be pregnant, to experience all that. I'm scared of the labor and delivery part but am looking forward to it, looking forward to being able to say, that's right I got pregnant and delivered a baby.

Does anyone else still feel that sting of infertility? I know I only tried for a year and a half, and only saw a doctor 3 times and after a few months of metformin it worked, I know others have more painful and more serious stories, but it still hurts, it still changed my life. If you do know how that feels, what did you do to get away from that feeling? That jealousy, that disbelief?
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