PYHO.

Sunday afternoon, we were driving to return a couple movies. On our way, I noticed a house, filled with cars and people outside. It didn't look right. Later I noticed the same. That evening when we were heading to family dinner with my parents, my mom told me that the teenage boy that lived there was taken by Life Flight. We found out that he had later passed on, he had committed suicide. 

The next morning I saw post after post on Facebook, from people grieving for the family. People remembering this sweet young boy. My sister knew him from school, he was kind, accepted my sister for who she is. Then today, there was an announcement at her school that another kid had again committed suicide. 

Bullying. 

That's the cause of these two losses. Two kids, were pushed so far, that it just didn't seem worth it anymore. Two families are without their sons, brothers, and so much more. I know there have been many things in the news about this, but to have it so close to home, makes it even more real. 

I was bullied in school. My brother was bullied. My sister was bullied and she was brave enough to bring it up and the administrator told her to "stay away from the girl". I worry for my youngest sister. She's a sweet person, emotional, strong. But different. She's being bullied. She stands up for herself though, she gives it back. Calls people on it. Stands up for kids being bullied, but how much can she take? I can't believe that two kids from the same school in the same week, deciding they couldn't take it anymore. I fear for what school will be like when A goes. 

These are fears that everyone has for their kids I'm sure. Just today, this week, it's on my mind. 

Will things change? Will this school realize they are doing something wrong somewhere? 

10.

I was tagged, to answer some questions from Di at A Little Bit of Life. 

1) What is your least favorite chore?

 Definitely dusting. Wait, cleaning the toilet. Umm, dishes? You know the ones that have been in the fridge or hub's car WAY WAY too long.

2) Do you prefer salty or sweet snacks?

I like both. Though, I'm sure I choose sweet most of the time. I love chocolate.

3) What's your favorite pick me up on days that you are dragging?

Hmmm, that's a hard one.  I started NOT drinking soda about a month ago? and moved onto a cup of coffee in the morning, but now I'm trying to get away from coffee.  So right now, if I'm dragging, I'm dragging. Though, I do like having something to do! Strange right? Knowing I'll go out and go shopping, will help me wake up, will get me excited for the day. 

4) How did you meet your other half?

Online. I feel strange saying it. 

5) Are you a neat freak, messy, or somewhere in between?

Somewhere in between for sure. I've learned there are some battles you just shouldn't fight out. Like keeping things clean, hubs is a pig. I love him but it's true. And A, well she's an explorer, and I love watching her explore, though it does mean a mess. So I pick my battles and keep the bathroom/closet & a few other rooms, as spotless as I can, and others I just let life take it. 

6) Are you a risk taker or more of a rule follower?

A rule follower for sure.  Always have been. Except for those few months I was dating the hubs. I was 18 though, so it's not like I was really not listening to my parents, I just wasn't doing what they would prefer I do.

7) Describe your kitchen.?

A work in progress. I redid the cabinets, and painted, now its time to get decorating. 

8) If your life was a TV show what would the title be?

It'd be a drama filled show for sure. How about, My Crazy, Wonderful Life.

9) What is your favorite way to spend Friday night

Snuggling with A. My family has "family date night" and we all get together and hang out. Unless the hubs is home and we just snuggle up to a movie.

10) Do you have a favorite restaurant? What do you order there?

I don't right now, which is strange. Since moving to Utah there hasn't been a MUST GO TO place. In California, I had many favorites! I do like Pesto stuff though!

11) Tell me about your most annoying neighbor...

I think I actually like most of my neighbors. I don't know very many of them. But I do dislike the ones that figure the parties need to last past 12, for fireworks and such, and run out screaming every holiday like animals, waking my baby. Or the strange guy that always walks up to my house to use my garbage can. I don't like that. Or how about the teenage girl up the street who's boyfriend parks in front of my house some nights, and leaves his DIRTY UNDERWEAR in my driveway. Yeah, if I could catch him one of these times I'd beat him.

So now I need to tag some people and then you are supposed to answer my questions (below), then you  tag  more people and give them their own questions, if you'd like to!

So I'm just going down and randomly putting people on here, don't feel like doing this? Fine by me! Feel like doing it and you weren't tagged? Let me know, I'll add ya.

Courtney @ Dear Restyn,
Annie @ Chapter of our life
Robbie @ Fractured Family Tales
Amanda @ The Mayor's Wife
B @ Infertile Mormon Mommy 
Kristen @ The Preppy Girl in Pink
Shelley @  Hand in Hand (her blog is private, but I know some of you follow her!)

1. What is your favorite holiday, outside of Christmas?
2. Favorite vacation spot? If you don't have a favorite vacation spot, what is your ideal vacation?
3. What's your must have piece of clothing? (Like, do you have to have tank tops, a certain type of jeans)
4. Make up must have?
5. What TV shows do you watch?
6. What your go to recipe? (Can be for anything, dessert, dinner...)
7. What are some of your favorite blogs to read? Why?
8. Cleanest room in your house? Messiest?
9. Give us a glimpse of your day.
10. Favorite season?

Have fun!

It's Okay.

I'm a little upset right now. It's okay.

See the great job that the hubs had applied for, well it looks like it's not going to work out. Even though it hurts to say this, it's okay. 

I know there will be other jobs. We just needed this one. It would give us a normal schedule. It would give Sky more time to see A. 

It's okay that I also decided this week that I wouldn't watch Eternity, the demon child. Her mom and mom's boyfriend had a very difficult time, being on time, or even showing up. I couldn't get up at 5:30 and wait for 5 hours for someone to show up. I can't mess up A's schedule for no reason.

It's okay that I've accepted the fact that I will probably keep my hair short. 

It's okay that I've slipped and had a few soda's here and there. I don't drink them like I used to. 

Which brings me to the fact that, it's okay that I've gained like 3 pounds. 

It's okay that I made a yummy Chex/Crispies snack yesterday and ate almost the entire container. 

It's okay that A decided to sleep through the night, Tuesday night, but last night the storm woke her once and she ended up sleeping with us. 

It's okay that I left laundry in the wash (again) over night and now need to wash it again. 

It's okay that I might not get to it anytime soon. 

It's okay, isn't it?

Target Tuesday

 Here's a quick Target Tuesday Post for you!

Just some purses, some earrings and a few watches I might like. 

Clean.

10 Things I'd Rather be Doing than Cleaning.

Playing with A.

Creating.

Baking.

Shopping.

Eating.

Blogging.

Sleeping.

Relaxing.

Exploring.

Planning.

AND just because I feel like making lists!

10 Things I don't like to clean.

Toilets. 

(My husband's to be specific. Gross.)

The garage. 

(Bugs. AH!)

The basement. 

(My sister & her family destroyed it and left.)

The fridge. 

(To be more specific, the Tupperware in it.)

Sky's car. 

(He leaves Tupperware in it.)

Diaper Explosions. 

Anything the dog leaves in the house that he shouldn't. 

(Thankfully this like never happens.)

My craft box. 

(It's a mess & even when cleaned it gets ridiculously messy ridiculously fast.)

Cuts, on other people. 

(Sky has stepped on glass and cut his thumb open with cans and it's almost too much for me to handle.) 

Dishes.

(It always messes up my nail polish! ha!)

It's Okay.

After two ear infections and growing 4 teeth, A's schedule is messed up to say the least. Our baby that slept through the night at 5 weeks, was waking up after half an hour in her crib and even when putting her in bed with us, she tossed and turned ALL night and woke up every 1-2 hours.

So we went to the doctors. He checked her ears. Said that her ears looked great, and that it takes a while after being sick to get back into a sleep schedule. At least 2 weeks. 

Okay. Well that began operation "get A to sleep in her crib, all night, again."

It was hard. We are not a "cry it out" household. I just can't do that. 

So I can say that the last few nights, she's slept 5 hours, in her crib.

After that she sleeps in our bed. 

So she's not back to where she was, but it takes time.

It's okay that she only sleeps 5 hours in her crib. 

It's okay that she sleeps with us after that because, I usually end up falling asleep trying to get her to sleep. 

It's okay that we don't CIO at our house. 

It's okay that this might take a while to get her back to her old schedule. 

As for me,

It's okay that I'm skipping working out (again) this morning, so I can catch up on blogs and post something.

It's okay that I've slipped up the last month and had a couple sodas. 

Which reminds me, I do not like soda anymore. YUCK!

It's okay that I agreed to start watching the "demon child" again, even though I'm not sure that I like her.

It's okay that I only agreed to do it because, I didn't know how to tell her mom no.

It's all okay. 

I'm planning A's first birthday. That is not okay. She cannot grow up that fast. It's too fast. 

Someone, PLEASE make it STOP!

PYHO: Survive.

Life has been kicking us lately. 

Sky's "on-the-side" income dropped like to nothing out of no where, right when we needed that "extra" money the most. 

It seemed like the bills were piling, up. Wait they were. They were piling up, way over our heads. 

$2000 here. Another $300 there. 

Oh then Sky's student loan payments popped up. Great. That's another $500. 

I tried doing day care, first it was the "demon child" that didn't work out. Then it was Eli, and his dad broke his hand so that took away gym time which took by day care from me. It happens. 

Sky works 74 miles (one way) away from home. He drives 148 miles a day. 

You don't even want to know how much we pay in gas a month, just for his car. 

Okay, to make my point, it's AT LEAST $400, a month. 

Oh and his "great job with potential to move up" was a load of... well ya know. 

He was stuck.

We were stuck. 

What in the heck do we do?! 

There was no way we could survive another month or two. We filed our taxes ASAP so we could get that money and hopefully survive a little longer.

Sky constantly looks for jobs closer to us. He's interviewed at a few places. All of those places wasted his time. Their ads said they would pay what he need but that was a load too. 

Just when we decided to start looking out of state, he got a call. This job would be 29 miles away from home. He could take the train to work.

He got an interview. 

When he got home, he exchanged emails back and forth between the owner, and the guy he would work with. He got another call today.

They want him. They are going to write up an offer and send it to him in the next couple days.

They know what he wants. They can afford it. Now it just comes to  the chase. What can they offer. Why should we choose them? 

Well DUH, we will choose them, anything they can offer is better than his current place.

We're going to survive. 

It's moments like this, that I know someone somewhere is looking out for me.

Link Up!

I know, I already posted today, BUT I found this GREAT link-up and HAD to be a part of it. 

Getting to Know Me.

I started blogging to vent, this was my outlet, I was TTC and it was taking a toll on me. This blog became a journal for me when I was pregnant, capturing weekly updates and now it's all about A and the milestones in her life and whatever the heck else I want to blog about.

I link up. I love link-ups, though lately I'm trying to cut back on them, trying to force myself to write a post without the help of a link-up. 

I'm 22. 

I love chocolate.

Lately I've become addicted to ice cream.

I'm currently dieting, well sort of, I've stopped drinking soda & now work out. 

I love Netflix, it is my only source of TV. I've watched TOO many shows.

Psych.

Army Wives.

Desperate Housewives.

Raising Hope.

Swap People. 

& I just started Grey's Anatomy.

Just to name a few.

I make bows. Check out my Etsy Shop. 

I don't get along with my in-laws and I'm not afraid to talk about them.

I have a very full closet, almost too full.

I have 200 pairs of shoes & love every pair. 

Can't wait to meet some new bloggers!

I Love my Days.

Only 10 (of the many things) I LOVE about my days!

1. I wake up next to my beautiful baby girl & my handsome husband! 

2. That means I get to wake up to beautiful baby girl smiles.

3.  And I get those smiles ALL day long.

4. I also get some mean looks, which I find hilarious! She's good at giving nasty looks, wonder where she got that from?! :)

5.I get to watch my baby girl learn new things 

6. And practice what she's already learned.

7. I get all to hold her as long as I want and I'm almost positive I've never put her down.

8. I get to do everything with my little girl, like going to dinner with my family.

9. And going shopping!

10. And no matter what the day, I get to end it with snuggling with my baby girl, usually watching a show.

Saturday Re-Cap.

So we went out yesterday, as a family. All of us, well not Stinky & her Momma though, they still live in Vegas. Which reminds me, real fast, Skyler & I are starting to look for jobs for him, out of state. Vegas was on the list. We're staying close to Utah to start, all we know is, we're drowning here. We need something to come through soon or we're outta here. My parents did it, I know we can.  Anyway we went out for my parents' 25 anniversary, which is tomorrow. It was nice. I didn't get pictures of us going out but I made Sky take some of me and A together.

Aunt Sissy bough A a Valentine's present, which she loved!

What's in there!?

Ring pops?!

A dress, ring pops & stickers! YAY!

Our Love Story.

1. How long have you and your significant other been together?

Skyler & I have been together for 4 years! 

2. How did you meet? {What's your "love" story?}

We met online. Read more here. 

3. If married, how long have you been married? 

We've been married for 3 1/2 years on the 16th! 

4. If you are married, where did you get married at? Big or small wedding? 

We got married in my parent's backyard, it was a pretty small wedding! 

5. Do you have any nick-names that you call one another? 

I don't think we do! Hmmm... strange right?

6. Name 3 things you love most about your honey.

His drive, he's always working as hard as he can, doing all that he can to make sure I can stay home with Miss A. 

He listens to me when I need to just vent, about everyone and everything, he's like a girlfriend to me. ha!

He loves A, he loves seeing her pictures, blurry or not, will run into the house just to see her. 

7. Tell us how he proposed?

He proposed at a park, on my 19th birthday. He took me to dinner at Lorena's my favorite restaurant and when we showed up at the park we walked for a while, then ended up at a table that his mom had set up, covered with a table cloth, lemonade, water bottles and a radio oh and roses. And he got down on one knee, and said "I just want to ask you one thing" and then I turned around and he asked!!

8. Is he a flowers and teddy bear kind of guy for v-day, or strawberries, champagne, and rose petals?

I think he's a mixture. He wants to do nice, "champagne, and rose petals" things but seems to lean more towards flowers and snacks! Ha!

9. Are you a sunset dinner on the beach kind of girl, or pop a movie in and relax on the couch?

If we lived near the beach, I'd love the beach, but I LOVE to just relax on the couch with Skyler. We are couch potatoes. 

10. Tell us one thing you'd like to do with your significant one day. If you could do anything? Go anywhere?

Go to the beach. He's never been. It's amazing, I love it. Oh and amazing food. We both LOVE LOVE LOVE food!

11. Tell us what you plan on doing on this Valentine's Day.

We are having a family Valentine's Day. Just the 3 of us, dinner, dessert & a show!

12. Are you asking for anything this Valentine's day?

 I would love some new clothes! I'm down under my pre-pregnancy weight, BUT my body has changed shape so I'd love some new clothes!

13. Give us one piece of advice of keeping a relationship strong and full of love.

Don't be afraid to fight for each other.  One of the hardest things for us to learn was that our families came second. Especially for Skyler. He would automatically take his family's side in arguments and it wouldn't be till later that he would realize how wrong they were. Unless you are 100% without a doubt sure that the other person is right, stand by your spouse. I could ramble on about this for days, but I won't. Just be there for your spouse.

14.  Show us a picture of what love means to you.

Friendship.

I had this friend, Cody. We actually met online when I lived in Cali. He was one of my best friends, we would talk on the phone for hours, we have so much in common. Large families, half mexican, half white, one parent with health problems, same religious background, just tons in common. When I moved to Utah, he moved to Utah and lived with his Aunt & cousins, he also got a job working with my Aunt & Uncle. My sister would always joke that we would get married. Then he left. After he left, I met Skyler and when I announced we were getting married, he sent me an email.

I was surprised to hear from him. Happy even. Until I read it. He told me that I was stupid for getting married so young. He expected better from me. And a whole bunch of other rude crap. I couldn't believe it. Why would someone send something so hurtful? My best friend even. So why I do I tell you this?

Well Cody posted on good ole Facebook, that he's engaged. The first thing I thought, was I'm so happy for him. Then I remembered what he had done to me, and I wanted to do the same back to him. Show him what it feels like to have your friend treat you like that. I didn't. I made sure to tell him congrats. It felt good. It felt better when I got a text from him telling me thanks, and asking for my address. 

I just couldn't do it to him. He's my friend, he was my best friend at some point and just to clear it up, we never dated and never thought/talked about it. I tried to keep in contact after I got married, it didn't work too well. He was always changing his number, doing this, doing that. I miss my best friend. I wish him the best. I want him to be happy. I want him to enjoy life. I want him back in my life. He lives in another state, it'd be nice to know that we can still be friends, especially now with him getting married. 

After this happened, I went to my in-law's Superbowl party. (BLAH!) Nothing has changed there. Yeah, I'll sit there and talk to them, but outside of their get together's, I get nothing from them. The worst SIL of all, well I guess I can't say worst, let's say the one I've had the most problems with, she asked her Step-Sister to come help her decorate her house right in front of me, after asking me tons of times to help her, I've just been waiting on her. I can't do it. I need a friend back. I need one IRL. Someone I can say, hey meet me here, or hey, come over I'm cleaning and want to talk. 

I just feel like there isn't a place for me, other than at home with A, like I don't fit in somewhere else. I don't know what brought this on, it couldn't have just been that announcement. Right now, I'm just feeling blah! 

11 Months.

Miss A, the day you turned 10 months we went to lunch at noodles and company and you were FLIRTING with a boy! YOU iniated the conversation you two had and everything! You were even dancing for him!

Here's a fun video of that.

You have grown SO much this last month, at your last check up (Feb 1) you weighed in at 20lbs 12 oz. 

You are still in size 3 diapers.

You wear size 18 month clothes. You are so dang tall! You are skinny though!

Here are some pictures from this last month

 Stinky left this month. 

Oh and you stand. You can climb up next to something and stand, ALL by yourself. It's adorable!

You also push your little walker car around, Aunt Ray has a video but won't send it to me! 

This month has been hard on you. You had teeth coming, then an ear infection (again) and more teeth) you currently have 3 teeth in and 2 almost in. 

You love to dance, play with stickers and still love to watch Tangled! 

Can you believe she'll be 1 in a month?!