TTC #2 Update.

I feel like we're officially more than before, back into the TTC game. We've been trying for 6 Cycles now. I go by cycles. Easier for me to remember for whatever reason. 

So last week I wrote this post.

I got a lot of comments encouraging me just to call and ask some questions. That's what I did Monday morning. 

I called. I told the nurse what was going on & she said come in tomorrow morning for a consult with the Doc. Well that's what I did.

It wasn't at all what I was expecting. I was expecting a, "We don't usually see patients until it's been a year". 

I should have known by that call that the whole appointment wasn't going to be what I expected.

I was so nervous, for whatever reason. (I'm sure some of you will understand)
I even heard the nurses talking outside the door, almost sounded like they were making fun of me. Just something about the tone of their voices that nearly made me cry. 

When my doctor came in, he was very straight forward & very clear with his plan. (so nice)
He asked about my previous Dr. visits (pre-pregnancy with A.) 
Said that he wanted to start with Clomid. 

He just took out a card & started writing, telling me that he had a plan.

Day 1: Start
Day 3-9: Clomid
Day 10-17: Try
Day 24: Appt (Oct 2)
Day 30: Pg Test

It was really that simple.
It worked out perfect, I went in on Cycle Day 3, perfect time for blood work,
perfect time to start Clomid. 

On Thursday his office called to let me know that my blood work came back normal.

So now I sit here Day 10 writing this. Listening to giggles & watching my hubs chase my little climber around. We have a plan. It's a new plan. 
I have my doctor on my side. 

This cycle things are already different. I've stopped drinking caffeine and I've also gotten very good at remembering to take my Prenatal, Iron & Folic Acid. 

I don't know if it'll work out this cycle. 
All I know is, we have a plan. 
It will work out when it's supposed to. 

It's Okay.

After two ear infections and growing 4 teeth, A's schedule is messed up to say the least. Our baby that slept through the night at 5 weeks, was waking up after half an hour in her crib and even when putting her in bed with us, she tossed and turned ALL night and woke up every 1-2 hours.

So we went to the doctors. He checked her ears. Said that her ears looked great, and that it takes a while after being sick to get back into a sleep schedule. At least 2 weeks. 

Okay. Well that began operation "get A to sleep in her crib, all night, again."

It was hard. We are not a "cry it out" household. I just can't do that. 

So I can say that the last few nights, she's slept 5 hours, in her crib.

After that she sleeps in our bed. 

So she's not back to where she was, but it takes time.

It's okay that she only sleeps 5 hours in her crib. 

It's okay that she sleeps with us after that because, I usually end up falling asleep trying to get her to sleep. 

It's okay that we don't CIO at our house. 

It's okay that this might take a while to get her back to her old schedule. 

As for me,

It's okay that I'm skipping working out (again) this morning, so I can catch up on blogs and post something.

It's okay that I've slipped up the last month and had a couple sodas. 

Which reminds me, I do not like soda anymore. YUCK!

It's okay that I agreed to start watching the "demon child" again, even though I'm not sure that I like her.

It's okay that I only agreed to do it because, I didn't know how to tell her mom no.

It's all okay. 

I'm planning A's first birthday. That is not okay. She cannot grow up that fast. It's too fast. 

Someone, PLEASE make it STOP!

First Dr Appt... I guess

So yesterday, Thursday, 6/2, I took my baby in for the very first time to the Dr's. Well the first time taking her outside of her wellness check ups. I was sure she had an ear infection. After her bath earlier I noticed some drainage from  her ear. Crap. I called my mom because Dr. Google brought me to sites such as Baby.Center that told me babies do a few different things for ear infections:

They pull on their ears... she doesn't do this...I don't think she even knows she has ears

They don't like to lay down....no problem there. She's fine laying down.

They don't eat very well... umm... my boobs say she's fine there.

Drainage... yeah today but thats it.

Well I called my mom, my brother had so many ear infections he eventually went deaf, he's able to hear now thank goodness. She said her babies never had any signs other than random drainage, so that decided it, I was going to go in. Thankfully they had an appointment for 2, only half an hour from when I called. 

They got her weight and she's grown! 12lbs 12.5 oz! Yay! Well he came in and she was all sorts of wiggly for him, kicking him and such. It was too cute. Right ear was fine, left ear middle ear, ear drum looked fine, but there was some drainage, so he gave us some drops and said 4 drops twice a day just to be safe she may have an infection further in but he doesn't think so then the all important question comes

  any other questions?

 I didn't have any but my dear sweet Skyler did, now for the record when he is home we dwell in the living room, it's our lazy time, I take a break from cleaning most of the time he's off work, and at night we just wind down watching shows. Well Abigail is used to moving around non stop so his days off she is bored with just sitting with him, and then at night when he finally gets home its about her bed time so she's fussy. Because of all that he assumes that she is cranky all the time. Well he brought that up, so he suggested gripe water. Okay, more free samples, and then he said her diaper has been switching from green to yellow a lot. Well thats normal too.  

I understand his concern, but I've told him it's all normal, theres this mom thing that I believe we have that lets us know if there is something wrong with our babies. I don't know why but I feel stupid when he asks things that I've already answered for him. I feel like a bad mom. I feel like they look at me like I'm stupid. I'm too young. I don't know it's just ridiculous lol. 

Giveaway Info & Dr's Appt

Morning! Before I get into the dr's appointment info, just wanted to tell you about ANOTHER awesome giveaway... this time you can check it out here. It's a bag by Charm Designs, and they are all beautiful!!

So all weekend starting early Saturday I'd been having some real bad contractions, ick! These lasted up through Monday, and even had a few at the my appointment, well they decided since I'd been having them constantly still to go ahead and check...

Dr: What did the hospital tell you, you were dilated to?

Me: Nothing.

Dr: Nothing? Well you're definitely not nothing.

Me: just wondering to self what that means to lost to ask

Dr: WELL, lay back let's check the heart beat... Oh you're having one now....

Me: Yup.

Dr: It's from me checking you....

Me: Ummm... ya I don't want to tell you but I've been having them all day...

Dr: Well try to keep her in till the 19th, stay down till then. Though she is past the danger part, before if she came we would be worried, now there wouldn't be those worries. You'll need to know these 5 things and if any of these things happen come into the hospital or call us.

1. bleeding

2. water breaks

3. contractions 5 minutes apart

4. baby not moving...

** not sure if he actually said a 5th one or not I can't remember**

I also start to see him every week now. Meaning I get checked again Monday. Which means Monday will be another very long painful day. I had contractions and cramping so bad all day, I wanted to cry. Totally worth it, just wondering how much has changed at the next appt.

33 Week Dr Appointment

Just a quick update!! Had my 33 week appointment yesterday, everything looks great! I only have to take the pills to stop the contractions till 37 weeks! I can't wait! That's not too much longer only like 3 weeks left! She could be here anytime after that! I can't wait!

Specks...

I feel like I post too much now :) lol. Well at least i'm posting. Yesterday was pretty good, same as always, up at 3am didn't go back to bed till 11pm, had the usual hour of pretty bad contractions then they stop out of no where. Again, I wasn't stressed, dehydrated and my bladder wasn't full. Then later around 5:15 or so I felt a little crampy. Then about 5:20 I went pee and I saw a little speck. Hmmm maybe it was just from my pink underwear... so I check and this time more speck, and a 3rd and 4th time and even more specks, so I showed my mom, and called Skyler and I called L&D and the lady said it was normal. A couple more bathroom breaks and it was the same then stopped completely. But still felt crampy most of last night, and only a little this morning. So far only 1 contraction today that I was awake for, I know I was out cold last night so if any little ones came I didn't notice.

I just think its weird that I would spot and cramp 4 days after my exam. I already had a fair amount of stuff Wednesday early morning and a little brown that day once, so shouldn't it have stopped? I know it stopped now and that's all that matters, and I'll of course talk to the Doc about it but, its just so strange to me that it would wait 4 days! I've been up moving around the same amount every day, I stayed in bed more yesterday than any other day this week. I guess every little thing I'm starting to notice now. I know I'm worrying too much and noticing too much, but it's hard. It's hard just to let things go and say oh whatever. It's always like hmmm... wonder about that? and about that? and that?! Anyway, hope everyone is doing well.

Yesterday's Appointment

So I had my 3rd OB appointment this week, yesterday. It was a quick one, it was his day off but he stopped in for me. I got my second steroid shot, so her lungs should be developing quite faster now, which I'm glad to know. I want to make sure if my body doesn't relax like it should and she is forced to be here sooner that we've given her a chance to get stronger. After the shot, good ol' Dr M came in.

He asked about the contractions, of course I was still having them at least every 2 hours, told him about waking up in the middle of the night with really bad ones, and his reason was a full bladder. Um really? I can't hold that much in there anymore, I pee ALL the time. I'm obviously relaxed, because they wake me out of a deep sleep! I'm not stressed over anything anymore, as soon as we had to go to L&D I stopped stressing immediately. I don't let anything bother me.

It feels like he is trying to make me feel better. Trying not to stress me out. He wants to keep her in for at least a few more weeks. If he thought so strongly that they would go away and she'd stay in till the end,why did I get the steroid shots? Why am I going in every 3 days for check ups? Why did I get such a large prescription of Terbutaline? 60 pills? I can only take them every 4 hours as needed. They'll last me forever! I'm not worried about any of this, I know Abigail will arrive when she is supposed to, and she will be healthy no matter when that is. I just noticed how he was acting and it was strange. It was different then he usually is. Maybe I'm just being weird because I have more time on my hands? I don't know.

Posting again?!

Yup, I'm at it again. I think this is the most I've posted ever. Though now that I'm stuck on bed rest, which from the looks of it might be the rest of this pregnancy (I'll get to that in a min) I have not much else to do but lay in bed and write. I loved to write when I was younger. Loved the feeling you get from writing it all out, no matter how mean and nasty it was or how useless and senseless it would seem to others. I still love to write, just sometimes don't know how to put things in a different perspective then the negative way I start to post it and let it spiral out of control.

This bed rest thing is hard and its only the start of day #2. I went until 8:27 without having a contraction last night, that was a whole 5 hours! But at the 5 hour mark my body decided it wanted to cause drama. The first contraction came then several small ones, crappy. But it started to slow, but whenever I sit up or stand up straight I get a nice crampy like feeling in the lower abdomen, (not contraction like but crampy more so--maybe it was contractions but they weren't like they were at the hospital so I was fine) well quarter to 10 I decided that it would be best to take the Terbutaline and relax my uterus. I know it started to work because my heart started to race and I'm sure my stomach started to relax a bit. Then I fell asleep. I woke up a bunch to move because down there still felt so sore, and right now as I'm reclined back in bed it doesn't hurt but if I stand up or sit up more than a reclining position it starts to hurt again.

I don't know what to think about any of this. My Dr. says he's sure she'll stay in, and that after a few days rest he'll be letting me do more, but I just don't know. If every time I stand up it gets really sore, not just baby is heavy pressure type sore it's different. And if contractions can come after me drinking so much water and staying in bed unless a pee break is needed and me not feeling stress at all the last couple days... can't they come if he slowly lets me do stuff again? If my body is sensitive now and me doing nearly anything causes at least one, won't being able to do more stuff bring them on? I kinda joked with Skyler that once the 37 week mark hits all I have to do is go take a walk around real fast and we'd have a baby! I'm not sure what to think. I've always thought she would come early, and with the dream from my grandma found under the emotion part of that post, I'm just not sure what to think anymore.

I'll lay in bed all day if that helps her stay in just a day longer, but it's definitely a hard one. Hope everyone is doing well :)