Sunday Social 5/4

Questions:

1. Who do you call when you need to vent? Vegas. Well my little sister that lives in Vegas, but I think we'll just call her Vegas on here.

2. Where do you go when you need alone time? My room.

3. What is your favorite alone time activity? Yoga, hot bath, a movie alone. Anything is nice. 

4. What is something we should all stop and read right now? My blog? Ha. Umm I just finished up The Fault in Our Stars - John Green, and I LOVED it.

5. Who do you wish would read your blog that doesn’t already? Family? Celeb? Anyone really, I feel like the time & effort I put into making sure I comment on other's blogs and give decent comments just don't come back to me. Maybe someday right?

Happy Sunday!

Oh the Weekend.

With the weekend fast approaching and my computer FINALLY set up again. It is most definitely time for a blog post and what better way to start blogging than by doing one of my very favorite link ups. Perfect topic by the way. 

10 THINGS TO DO DURING THE WEEKEND

1. Big Breakfast. I don't know why but it seems like the weekends are the only time I'm interested in a big breakfast so we do just that every Saturday and Sunday morning. Pancakes or French toast. Eggs. Bacon. Sometimes a potato, egg, sausage scramble. Yum!

2. Shop. The girls and I tend to head out with my mom on Saturdays and shop. We mostly window shop but we love it!

3. Head out to lunch. Sames as above, the girls and I love heading to lunch with Nana before we go window shopping.

4. Visit Grandparents. They're busy people during the week. My grandma does bowling, an exercise class, or two and heads to church functions quite often. Wish I had that much energy.

5. Deep clean something. The only time the husband is home and has tons of extra hours during the day. If anything needs heavy lifting or there's a chance of spiders he's on it. 

6. Be lazy. Oh goodness, how I love to sleep in even 10 minutes on weekend mornings.

7. Watch movies. Friday nights = family nights. 

8. Destroy the house. Seems like when daddy is home the girls get into everything and nothing gets put back. 

9. Nice long drives. When its cold like it is right now nothing beats grabbing some coffee or hot chocolate and hitting the road looking at all the new houses they're building and day dreaming of all that we want in our "dream house". 

10. Pajama day.  Oh who am I kidding, this happens during the week too. It's nice to do it on the weekends when the husband is home. 

What are things you do or like to do during the weekend?

In-law Drama & Babies.

I'm not sure what makes my in-laws do the things they do. I am however very tired of the way they question every decision I make. 

For example, the fact that I didn't want any visitors while I was in labor with Miss A, my mom and baby sister took me to the hospital and waited till my husband showed up then left to pick up around my house & love my dog. My younger sister stopped by with food for the husband that night, weren't there for more than 5 minutes total. 

Or that I didn't want kids or very many visitors in the hospital after I had her. I didn't need a crowded room while I was relaxing and enjoying my first hours as a mom. (If you like to do that, that's fine I'm not judging, its just not what I wanted to have happen.)

Every time they threw a fit. Complaining, saying it was weird. Like when they got mad because I was tired of people showing up whenever with whoever they wanted after I got home and said something about it. My house, my baby, my rules. 

The newest thing is the fact that I'm having my girls share a room. I just finished putting the toddler bed back into the nursery & setting up the new crib. They fit perfect in that room together. I grew up always sharing a room, I loved it. Once I was older I got my own room, just when I started feeling like I needed my own space. And again, my house, my girls, my rules. 

Every one parents different. My husband and I have agreed on a certain way that makes us all comfortable and happy. It's worked for us for over 2 years now. My sisters and their boyfriends choose to parent different than us, as do my brother, his fiance and his son's mom. They do what works for them. I might not agree with their styles, but they know their kids and I'm gonna keep my mouth shut, it's not my place. 

Having our new addition joining us so soon really has me on edge. I'm not ready for any drama with my in-laws. They're just going to need to accept that I do things different than them. I don't want an audience at the birth of Miss M, Miss A will be with my family, we'll only have a few visitors at the actual hospital and then people can schedule a time to visit at home after. It's really that simple. 

I don't know what to do. I'm starting to stress out about what they're going to do. I don't need my brother in law telling me that I need medication, because I like things a certain way. (Still can't believe he said that, I should have strangled him.)

 But really friends, what do you do? 

Sunday Social: 11/11

Favorite Thanksgiving Memory  

Growing up I lived in California, everyone in our extended family lived in Utah. For the 14 years we lived there 13 of them we packed our stuff the Thursday before and headed to Utah Friday after school. I didn't know my cousins or grandparent's, didn't feel comfortable with them, but it all changed when Thanksgiving came around, you felt like part of the family it was such an awesome feeling.

Favorite Thanksgiving Food 

I just don't know! Everything just goes together so well! Last year and this year my family has added a ham to our meal (which I'm in charge of making). Love it!

What is a Thanksgiving Tradition you and your family have?

I'm sure most families do this, but we always play games  and watch movies together. 

Show us a favorite Thanksgiving picture(or 5) from years past

The first Thanksgiving we celebrated as a family of 3!

What are you most looking forward to about this Thanksgiving?

All the food, ha! Spending more time with my siblings that are here in Utah. We get together quite often but a lot of the time one of us is missing, so excited for us ALL to be there.

Yellowstone Trip!

We had SO much fun in Yellowstone! 

So glad we went with my family! 

Just wish that my sisters would have been able to join us!

15 Day Challenge: Day #9

[Day 9]: Tell us the best day of your life to date.

March 5, 2011.

 The day my sweet baby girl was born. 

For those that have been around my blog for a while or those that have wandered through it, you'll know that it took us some time to get pregnant & that my pregnancy wasn't very easy going.

 So the day that Abigail came, my heart was mended. All the hurt that came with waiting for her, and the anxiety of trying to keep her in & growing was pushed back. 

Abigail made us a family.

It's Okay!

It's Okay:

A is eating chocolate chips at 8:30 this morning, she did eat yogurt first. 

A is watching Curious George so I can get some blogging in real fast.

That A watches shows for about an hour in the morning so I can blog & get ready.

That I like my coffee sweet.

That the next couple weeks will be full of scheduled posts & link-ups because my sister is in town with her daughter & I want to spend as much time as I can with them!

That this is my second post today, because I wanted a special one for the start of ICLW.

That my blog looks a little crazy.

That it looks crazy because I'm slowly figuring out how to design it on my own.

That I'm designing it by myself because I'm too cheap to pay someone to do it, especially since I like to change my blog up ALL the time.

That this list got A LOT longer than I thought it would!

Monday Listicles

I wasn't exactly sure what to write for this post, then I went to Sunday dinner at my Grandparent's house and it all magically came to me.

Things That Make Me Go Hmm

....Sunday Dinner....

1. My Uncle's ability to say something so stupid and inconsiderate, that I want to stab him with the nearest fork, and yet no one says anything to him. This time it was about the car accident my brother was in. 


2. My grandparent's need to put as much salt as possible on everything. I mean somethings are crunchy from how much salt is on the top.


3. The way dinner makes your stomach bubble and roll, as soon as you get on the freeway to head home. Their cooking is not for those with sensitive stomachs, our Sunday dinner group has narrowed down quite a bit due to sensitivity.


4. My cousin's way of making conversations so awkward that you find any excuse to leave the room.  He'll say something you don't need to reply to, then stare with his mouth open at you, almost like the words are right there waiting to come out, but they never do, they're just waiting for you to say something.


5. My cousin's ability to say "Hi Sara, how are you?", 3 different times to me within 20 minutes,  in 3 different rooms, and want a full response and the question asked to him. Acting like he's never asked me it, it's like, uhh hello? Do you not know we just talked?


6. My cousin changing her 4 year old's diaper, wait it gets better.... in the living room! Uhh, really?


7. My cousin not potty training her 2 year old even though he wants to be because her 4 year old doesn't want to be.  Uhh, if A is 4 and wearing a diaper and nothing has happened to cause this, (I do know some things cause this process to be drawn out) someone come find me and smack me!


8. My dad telling my nephew that seagulls eat people. Now this one will need a little story, C likes to ask 100 million questions to only a select few people, my dad, his dad, & me. While out working in the yard with my dad, and on question 1 million, he asked about the seagulls flying over and what they do. That's when my dad told him they eat people. Which C responded, "Do you think they saw us?!" , of course my dad got this straightened out, but really gotta wonder there.


9. My grandparent's having a 8 year old. Okay, so he's my older brother's boy, and my brother, his wife & daughter live in one of the basement apartments, but my nephew lives upstairs with my grandparent's, they don't have to do anything for him but it's still strange. 


10. My aunt's ability to have her pants hiked up so high, and being a different pattern from her top, that even I am uncomfortable for her, and it doesn't bother her. Uhh if my pants for whatever awful reason got that high, I would definitely definitely buy a new pair of pants or stick to skirts & dresses. NO ONE should have their pants up that high, there are certain things we don't want to see. 

Trying.

I feel lost right now. Maybe lost isn't the right word. I find myself searching for a change.Searching for something to make life different. I love my life, don't get me wrong.I just feel like I'm not doing enough.

 I haven't blogged much lately, I feel like I need to figure things out. Need to find a direction to go. I have some really fun ideas, I just need to actually do it. After blogging about my in-laws, I made one last attempt at trying to get a conversation started with them. Nothing in response. I'm over it, but I know that's not where response I should have. I  feel stuck, like it's an obligation to be friends with Skyler's family. I feel like if I don't things will go bad, again, but at the same time I don't have anymore room for hurt & disappointment from them.  

I just need to get over this bump. I may have forgiven, though I'm not sure, but I definitely haven't forgotten. I've received a lot of comments on prior blog posts concerning my in-laws and many of those suggest prayer. Pray for them. I've tried. I've spent many nights praying for them, praying for me to forgive them, for me to be able to forget & move one. I've prayed for the ability to understand them. 

It hasn't worked. I'm sick of praying for them. I know that is when I should pray, I just can't anymore. It has been over a year, I still have dreams of arguments. I can't do it. How else do you forgive & forget when the other side, hasn't done anything? I just need to be able to push them out of my mind, but I can't. I'm stuck with them forever. 

I'm trying. I'm trying to better myself. Trying to stay positive on everything. Trying to figure it out. Trying to forgive. Trying to forget. I don't what more to do. I'm just in a state of blah when it comes to the situation. I'm just here. Trying to figure it all out. 

12 months.

How did this happen Miss A?

How are you a year old?

At 1 years old, you are 22 lbs 13 oz, 30 3/4 in long, your head is: (I'll fill this in later) around.

You wear 18 month clothes, size 3 shoes, size 3 diapers.

You are an amazing little girl.

 Your personality is amazing.

 I love you more than anything. 

You have 6 teeth, 4 on top 2 on bottom. 

You still nurse & eat regular food. You don't sleep through the night again, yet. We're working on it, and your doctor said it could take quite a while. 

You wore your first set of pig tails.

You stand, walk around everything, try and climb. You love to play in the kennel at Grandma's house.

 You love to color, play with stickers and balls. 

You still love Tangled & Blue's Clues, we tried out Rio & you like that too. You cook & love to put things between your toes!

You love to read. You still only say  "da-da", and something that sounds like "don't". You love to clean up. You also love to play in the toilet paper.

You got your birthday pictures taken a couple days before you turned 1. I can't wait to print them off  bigger & put them up in your room. You go to church, but  would much rather crawl around the empty classrooms.

Birthday Pics Part 2

PYHO

I'm at a standstill.

I'm just here, waiting.

Waiting to see what happens.

Waiting to see what if I can figure out what to do next.

You see, it's been a year since (almost to the day) that  I had "the talk" with my in-laws.

A year since: I told them about all the lies their favorite sister told, since I told them how much they suck at being in-laws, called them on all the times they broke plans without telling me, how I waited for hours to hear from them and got nothing.

A year since I told them I wasn't outgoing, I kept to myself and don't like everyone in on everything ALL the time. A year since I told them if they would just give me time I would get to know them and things could be better. 

A year since they tried to break up my marriage. A year since they said I only had A to try and save my marriage. A year since they told husband to choose between me & A, and them. A year since I had accepted that my marriage was over because of the group of idiots my husband is related to.

You see, in that year, I opened up my heart and life, to allow them into it, and you know what, I got nothing. No phone calls, no texts, emails, nothing. I wasn't invited to anything, no plans were ever made. Nothing. They live 2 minutes away. They get together. They go out. They make plans. I'm not included.

What do I do? I've talked to my husband. He says I should keep trying with them. I'm over it. I'm to the point that I don't care if A doesn't see them or know them. It's not like they make an effort to see her or know her. I don't know what to do. It's been a year, they haven't changed. I just don't know anymore. Is it even worth it? What would you do?

Happy 2nd anniversary PYHO! 

PYHO: Survive.

Life has been kicking us lately. 

Sky's "on-the-side" income dropped like to nothing out of no where, right when we needed that "extra" money the most. 

It seemed like the bills were piling, up. Wait they were. They were piling up, way over our heads. 

$2000 here. Another $300 there. 

Oh then Sky's student loan payments popped up. Great. That's another $500. 

I tried doing day care, first it was the "demon child" that didn't work out. Then it was Eli, and his dad broke his hand so that took away gym time which took by day care from me. It happens. 

Sky works 74 miles (one way) away from home. He drives 148 miles a day. 

You don't even want to know how much we pay in gas a month, just for his car. 

Okay, to make my point, it's AT LEAST $400, a month. 

Oh and his "great job with potential to move up" was a load of... well ya know. 

He was stuck.

We were stuck. 

What in the heck do we do?! 

There was no way we could survive another month or two. We filed our taxes ASAP so we could get that money and hopefully survive a little longer.

Sky constantly looks for jobs closer to us. He's interviewed at a few places. All of those places wasted his time. Their ads said they would pay what he need but that was a load too. 

Just when we decided to start looking out of state, he got a call. This job would be 29 miles away from home. He could take the train to work.

He got an interview. 

When he got home, he exchanged emails back and forth between the owner, and the guy he would work with. He got another call today.

They want him. They are going to write up an offer and send it to him in the next couple days.

They know what he wants. They can afford it. Now it just comes to  the chase. What can they offer. Why should we choose them? 

Well DUH, we will choose them, anything they can offer is better than his current place.

We're going to survive. 

It's moments like this, that I know someone somewhere is looking out for me.

I Love my Days.

Only 10 (of the many things) I LOVE about my days!

1. I wake up next to my beautiful baby girl & my handsome husband! 

2. That means I get to wake up to beautiful baby girl smiles.

3.  And I get those smiles ALL day long.

4. I also get some mean looks, which I find hilarious! She's good at giving nasty looks, wonder where she got that from?! :)

5.I get to watch my baby girl learn new things 

6. And practice what she's already learned.

7. I get all to hold her as long as I want and I'm almost positive I've never put her down.

8. I get to do everything with my little girl, like going to dinner with my family.

9. And going shopping!

10. And no matter what the day, I get to end it with snuggling with my baby girl, usually watching a show.