In-law Drama & Babies.

I'm not sure what makes my in-laws do the things they do. I am however very tired of the way they question every decision I make. 

For example, the fact that I didn't want any visitors while I was in labor with Miss A, my mom and baby sister took me to the hospital and waited till my husband showed up then left to pick up around my house & love my dog. My younger sister stopped by with food for the husband that night, weren't there for more than 5 minutes total. 

Or that I didn't want kids or very many visitors in the hospital after I had her. I didn't need a crowded room while I was relaxing and enjoying my first hours as a mom. (If you like to do that, that's fine I'm not judging, its just not what I wanted to have happen.)

Every time they threw a fit. Complaining, saying it was weird. Like when they got mad because I was tired of people showing up whenever with whoever they wanted after I got home and said something about it. My house, my baby, my rules. 

The newest thing is the fact that I'm having my girls share a room. I just finished putting the toddler bed back into the nursery & setting up the new crib. They fit perfect in that room together. I grew up always sharing a room, I loved it. Once I was older I got my own room, just when I started feeling like I needed my own space. And again, my house, my girls, my rules. 

Every one parents different. My husband and I have agreed on a certain way that makes us all comfortable and happy. It's worked for us for over 2 years now. My sisters and their boyfriends choose to parent different than us, as do my brother, his fiance and his son's mom. They do what works for them. I might not agree with their styles, but they know their kids and I'm gonna keep my mouth shut, it's not my place. 

Having our new addition joining us so soon really has me on edge. I'm not ready for any drama with my in-laws. They're just going to need to accept that I do things different than them. I don't want an audience at the birth of Miss M, Miss A will be with my family, we'll only have a few visitors at the actual hospital and then people can schedule a time to visit at home after. It's really that simple. 

I don't know what to do. I'm starting to stress out about what they're going to do. I don't need my brother in law telling me that I need medication, because I like things a certain way. (Still can't believe he said that, I should have strangled him.)

 But really friends, what do you do? 

TTC #2 Update.

I feel like we're officially more than before, back into the TTC game. We've been trying for 6 Cycles now. I go by cycles. Easier for me to remember for whatever reason. 

So last week I wrote this post.

I got a lot of comments encouraging me just to call and ask some questions. That's what I did Monday morning. 

I called. I told the nurse what was going on & she said come in tomorrow morning for a consult with the Doc. Well that's what I did.

It wasn't at all what I was expecting. I was expecting a, "We don't usually see patients until it's been a year". 

I should have known by that call that the whole appointment wasn't going to be what I expected.

I was so nervous, for whatever reason. (I'm sure some of you will understand)
I even heard the nurses talking outside the door, almost sounded like they were making fun of me. Just something about the tone of their voices that nearly made me cry. 

When my doctor came in, he was very straight forward & very clear with his plan. (so nice)
He asked about my previous Dr. visits (pre-pregnancy with A.) 
Said that he wanted to start with Clomid. 

He just took out a card & started writing, telling me that he had a plan.

Day 1: Start
Day 3-9: Clomid
Day 10-17: Try
Day 24: Appt (Oct 2)
Day 30: Pg Test

It was really that simple.
It worked out perfect, I went in on Cycle Day 3, perfect time for blood work,
perfect time to start Clomid. 

On Thursday his office called to let me know that my blood work came back normal.

So now I sit here Day 10 writing this. Listening to giggles & watching my hubs chase my little climber around. We have a plan. It's a new plan. 
I have my doctor on my side. 

This cycle things are already different. I've stopped drinking caffeine and I've also gotten very good at remembering to take my Prenatal, Iron & Folic Acid. 

I don't know if it'll work out this cycle. 
All I know is, we have a plan. 
It will work out when it's supposed to. 

15 Day Challenge: Day #9

[Day 9]: Tell us the best day of your life to date.

March 5, 2011.

 The day my sweet baby girl was born. 

For those that have been around my blog for a while or those that have wandered through it, you'll know that it took us some time to get pregnant & that my pregnancy wasn't very easy going.

 So the day that Abigail came, my heart was mended. All the hurt that came with waiting for her, and the anxiety of trying to keep her in & growing was pushed back. 

Abigail made us a family.

PCOS.

If you followed my blog in the very beginning, or ventured back and got to know me better, you'll know that it took us 18 months to get pregnant with Miss A. I saw a RE who though it was PCOS and he put me on Metformin for 3 months to see if that changed anything, and it did. I wasn't able to take it very often, I threw up constantly when I did, but I was able to lose about 10lbs and we got pregnant.

So far since having A I've kept that weight off, I'm about 3lbs heavier than I was before I got pregnant. I've been working out, cut soda out for about a month, and seem to be gaining weight, my face is breaking out & I think I'm seeing some extra hair on my face, sexy right? If you know PCOS those are some signs.

See this whole thing started about a week or two ago when I started breaking out more, which NEVER happens. I figured I'd look up my birth control only to find it's the same as the shot, just lower doses. Acne & weight gain could happen too, so after some contemplation we agreed that I would stop the pill and see if my acne went away and if my weight went down, were going to watch things a week at a time, but I know I need 

to do more, I'm worried about every pound I gain being PCOS. 

It's been about a week since I stopped taking my BC. My face has cleared up and I seem to be losing a little weight, just going back to what I was before. I was also told to take extra Folic acid at my last appointment. Which seems to be making my stomach sick, any suggestions? I take it at night with my prenatal. Not sure what to do. 

Hubs is starting a diet this next week since he's gained about 60lbs since I had A. I wanted to try a PCOS diet plan, at least for breakfast & for dinner a few nights a week, but I can't plan both a plan for him & a plan for me and make them work, he has a very specific plan, and I don't know if I  want to try & make the two work together. It's bad enough I already have to change everything around for him. 

Sounds mean, I know. But without him helping around the house at all, its just easier to not mess with too many things. I know some of you deal with/have dealt with PCOS, any thoughts? Ideas? Help. Ha. 

Hope everyone is doing well. 

34 Weeks!!

How far along? 34 Weeks, 8 1/2 months!!

Baby's size and stats? Your baby now weighs about 4 3/4 pounds and is almost 18 inches long. Her fat layers — which will help regulate her body temperature once she's born — are filling her out, making her rounder. Her skin is also smoother than ever. Her central nervous system is maturing and her lungs are continuing to mature as well. If you've been nervous about preterm labor, you'll be happy to know that babies born between 34 and 37 weeks who have no other health problems generally do fine. Info taken from pregnancy.com

Gain? 22 lbs as of Monday, thats not too bad, right?

Maternity clothes? Really depends still, I can fit in my jeans still with the Belly Band, and my longer shirts, though I do have a pair of maternity jeans and quite a few maternity tops.

Sleep? It's still all over the place. Though the last few nights I've taken benadryl to help with my cold and it's helped me sleep through the night.

Foods I am loving? Same as always chocolate! Sandwiches, pizza.

Foods I am hating? Same, greasy stuff, meat.

Best moment this week? Having the Doc say that we only need to keep her in for 3 more weeks! That's not much longer! Also my Grandma stopped by and gave me one of the cute blankets she has made for Abigail.

Movement? All the time. Little movements are definitely much larger feeling now. Even just a little shift of her leg or arm and it feels huge!

Symptoms? 1. Nausea, yes its back. .
2. Contractions every day, oh and braxton hicks in between.
3. Headaches, back aches, pretty much the whole body aches.

4. Cravings.

5. Stretch marks! ICK!!!!

Gender? A GIRL!!!

What I'm looking forward to? Baby Shower Feb 5th and one the 17th!

Milestones: Making it to 34 weeks! It's been a long 4 weeks of Bed Rest but making it this far really does keep me motivated to keeping her in as long as possible!

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Eighteen Months. It took us 18 months of trying to finally get a positive. Eighteen, negatives. Eighteen months of wondering and heart break.

Early Eviction. I'll just let ya see this post...Early Eviction

Eight months. We were married on our 8 month dating anniversary. It was crazy to think that 8 months before we hadn't known each other at all. The last 8 months of this pregnancy have been very hectic, especially the two weeks prior to month 8. It's been wonderful to have such a supportive husband.

32 Week Update

How far along? 32 Weeks!! 8 months! Holy heck! Time is moving faster and faster.

Baby's size? Over 16 inches long and weighing in at over 3 pounds!

Weight Gain? Still 18lbs. Not too bad considering I've only gained ounces for 2 weeks worth of bed rest.

Stretch marks? Yes :( These bastard things decided to show up this last week after everything else that has been going on. I'm not sure why they even have. I hope they won't get too bad and hopefully they'll at least be not very noticeable after she is born.

Belly button in or out? Still half way like always.

Sleep? I really don't care for this question much. I usually sleep between 3 & 4 hours then I'm up for at least an hour if not for the whole entire day.

Foods I am loving? Raisin Bran, chocolate as always.

Foods I am hating? Heavy foods, greasy foods, fast food.

Best moment this week? Getting out of the house today and hubby letting me walk a bit in Target, I'm losing my mind being at home, the contractions come if I'm moving or not, hydrated or not, and empty bladder or not. I figure I deserve a chance to walk once in a while.

Movement? Yup, she's quite the mover. Last night at dinner I was drinking a strawberry lemonade, and it was tart, and every time I'd take a sip she'd jump!

Symptoms? Everything? Just about I feel. Contractions, B Hicks, stretch marks, nausea, headaches, bloody noses, peeing all the time (due to bladder punches-- Thanks Abigail), nesting, bed rest, bruises from shots (still!) that will help keep baby in....leaking boobs sometimes, cravings...

Gender? Girl :)

What I miss? I love being pregnant, but the last 11 days I've missed being able to do stuff.

What I will miss? Feeling her move, feeling her respond to sounds and foods.

What I'm looking forward to? Hopefully getting her name done, that's my goal for today... getting off bed rest? Making it another week.

Weekly Wisdom: Don't take simple things such as walking to the kitchen for granted.

Milestone: Making it 2 more weeks since the hospital visit, (I was only 30 weeks then), and making it to 8 months!

Emotions: All over the place as usual. I'm starting to lose it I'm sure.

This whole no sex thing is ridiculous, it's hard to remember it's dr's orders, it's bad enough feeling unattractive because of the stretch marks and such, but to get turned down is beating me up.

Also, I feel unprepared, so much was supposed to be done in her room by now, but I've been stuck in bed, so it feels like nothing is done. Though it's just decorations and extras now.

Excited, I'm so excited to meet her, we're hoping to hold her in till 37 weeks so only 5 more weeks and she'll be here. (I'm sure she'll be early, if contractions come just sitting here blogging they will most definitely come if I'm up walking the mall religiously, for hours.)

Nervous, I'm wondering if we'll even make it to 37 weeks, I don't know how long I can fight off these contractions. I also wonder how it's going to happen.

Thankful, I have so many wonderful people in my life to help me out, or who are willing to help.I'm also so thankful for this little girl.

Sad, I feel so lonely lately. I feel like i'm just there and everyone is together and happy. It's strange and hard to explain.

By now, your baby weighs 3.75 pounds (pick up a large jicama) and is about 16.7 inches long, taking up a lot of space in your uterus. You're gaining about a pound a week and roughly half of that goes right to your baby. In fact, she'll gain a third to half of her birth weight during the next 7 weeks as she fattens up for survival outside the womb. She now has toenails, fingernails, and real hair (or at least respectable peach fuzz). Her skin is becoming soft and smooth as she plumps up in preparation for birth.

Mon & Tues

What a whirl wind this past week has been. Life has been thrown in every direction. My brother & nephew moving out, the contractions and other baby stuff, I got my hair cut into an a-line again, and my sister is pregnant again. Wait what?! My little 16 year old sister is pregnant? And again even?!

Yup that's the newest gossip amongst the family. You might remember this from this post or even this one briefly mentioned it. But last year we found my sister --then 15-- was pregnant, and she ended up having a miscarriage. Monday she texted my dad while my mom and I were at the hair place and said she was pregnant again. Seriously? All I wanted to do was laugh. I mean really? She'll be 17 in April, and her boyfriend will be 17 in September, after they think the baby is due.

I just can't believe any of this. I of course support her and want the best for her but my heck.

Anyway that's just one thing going on around here.

I had another Dr's appt yesterday, thankfully I didn't gain the zillion pounds I thought I would have because of all the treats people have been bringing me... hmmm...a person on bed rest needs healthy stuff like carrots, so they don't just lay around eating chocolate all day :) He said bed rest for 2 more weeks (till my next appt) and no sex for at least 3.... ummm excuse me doc? That's not fair. I'll lay in bed for months if I have to but no sex?! Whatever. He wants me to keep her in there till 37 weeks, which is only 5 1/2 weeks not too bad. I just wish the contractions would stop completely. I also wish we could get more internal exams just to see if they're doing anything at all. Guess I'll just get to wait it out :)

Hope everyone is doing well!

31 weeks!!

How far along? 31 Weeks!!

Baby's size? Over 16 inches long and weighing in at over 3 pounds! As of Monday though she was weighing in at 2lbs 15 oz.

Weight Gain? 18 as of Monday :)

Stretch marks? Nope, thank goodness for that too.

Belly button in or out? It's still really all over the place :)

Sleep? sleep has absolutely sucked this week for the most part. After Tuesday night I've been waking up at about 2:30 every morning with contractions. Except for this morning, though I think my body was waiting for them to start.

Foods I am loving? Breakfast foods :)

Foods I am hating? Anything spicy, or greasy.

Best moment this week? Keeping Abigail in. Seeing her on Monday. It's been a crazy week.

Movement? Yes!

Symptoms? Less nausea, heart burn at the moment. Contractions, real ones, not the Braxton Hicks, lots of trips to the bathroom, heavy tummy. Sometimes leaking boobs.

Gender? A beautiful little girl!

What I miss? Nothing at all. Though I do miss not having to worry about contractions all the time. Anything I do, or don't do right brings them on.

What I will miss? Feeling her moving around. :)

What I'm looking forward to? Hopefully getting off bed rest this Tuesday, but thats only if the contractions go away completely. Hopefully Skyler let's me work on her name sign today.

Weekly Wisdom: Sleep when you're able, empty your bladder tons, drink tons of water.

Milestone: Having 9 weeks left!

Emotions: I'm all over the place, but whats new right? This week was very very hectic to say the least. I'm worried that my body wants little miss Abigail out a lot sooner then would be best for her. At each dr's appt this week I've heard a new excuse for the contractions, it seems like I said in my earlier post that he is just saying things to make me feel better.

This week, your baby measures over 16 inches long. He weighs about 3.3 pounds (try carrying four navel oranges) and is heading into a growth spurt. He can turn his head from side to side, and his arms, legs, and body are beginning to plump out as needed fat accumulates underneath his skin. He's probably moving a lot, too, so you may have trouble sleeping because your baby's kicks and somersaults keep you up. Take comfort: All this moving is a sign that your baby is active and healthy.