TTC #2 Update.

I feel like we're officially more than before, back into the TTC game. We've been trying for 6 Cycles now. I go by cycles. Easier for me to remember for whatever reason. 

So last week I wrote this post.

I got a lot of comments encouraging me just to call and ask some questions. That's what I did Monday morning. 

I called. I told the nurse what was going on & she said come in tomorrow morning for a consult with the Doc. Well that's what I did.

It wasn't at all what I was expecting. I was expecting a, "We don't usually see patients until it's been a year". 

I should have known by that call that the whole appointment wasn't going to be what I expected.

I was so nervous, for whatever reason. (I'm sure some of you will understand)
I even heard the nurses talking outside the door, almost sounded like they were making fun of me. Just something about the tone of their voices that nearly made me cry. 

When my doctor came in, he was very straight forward & very clear with his plan. (so nice)
He asked about my previous Dr. visits (pre-pregnancy with A.) 
Said that he wanted to start with Clomid. 

He just took out a card & started writing, telling me that he had a plan.

Day 1: Start
Day 3-9: Clomid
Day 10-17: Try
Day 24: Appt (Oct 2)
Day 30: Pg Test

It was really that simple.
It worked out perfect, I went in on Cycle Day 3, perfect time for blood work,
perfect time to start Clomid. 

On Thursday his office called to let me know that my blood work came back normal.

So now I sit here Day 10 writing this. Listening to giggles & watching my hubs chase my little climber around. We have a plan. It's a new plan. 
I have my doctor on my side. 

This cycle things are already different. I've stopped drinking caffeine and I've also gotten very good at remembering to take my Prenatal, Iron & Folic Acid. 

I don't know if it'll work out this cycle. 
All I know is, we have a plan. 
It will work out when it's supposed to. 

PCOS.

If you followed my blog in the very beginning, or ventured back and got to know me better, you'll know that it took us 18 months to get pregnant with Miss A. I saw a RE who though it was PCOS and he put me on Metformin for 3 months to see if that changed anything, and it did. I wasn't able to take it very often, I threw up constantly when I did, but I was able to lose about 10lbs and we got pregnant.

So far since having A I've kept that weight off, I'm about 3lbs heavier than I was before I got pregnant. I've been working out, cut soda out for about a month, and seem to be gaining weight, my face is breaking out & I think I'm seeing some extra hair on my face, sexy right? If you know PCOS those are some signs.

See this whole thing started about a week or two ago when I started breaking out more, which NEVER happens. I figured I'd look up my birth control only to find it's the same as the shot, just lower doses. Acne & weight gain could happen too, so after some contemplation we agreed that I would stop the pill and see if my acne went away and if my weight went down, were going to watch things a week at a time, but I know I need 

to do more, I'm worried about every pound I gain being PCOS. 

It's been about a week since I stopped taking my BC. My face has cleared up and I seem to be losing a little weight, just going back to what I was before. I was also told to take extra Folic acid at my last appointment. Which seems to be making my stomach sick, any suggestions? I take it at night with my prenatal. Not sure what to do. 

Hubs is starting a diet this next week since he's gained about 60lbs since I had A. I wanted to try a PCOS diet plan, at least for breakfast & for dinner a few nights a week, but I can't plan both a plan for him & a plan for me and make them work, he has a very specific plan, and I don't know if I  want to try & make the two work together. It's bad enough I already have to change everything around for him. 

Sounds mean, I know. But without him helping around the house at all, its just easier to not mess with too many things. I know some of you deal with/have dealt with PCOS, any thoughts? Ideas? Help. Ha. 

Hope everyone is doing well. 

PYHO

I've never done this before. Diana is opening my blogging world up. I always see her doing it. So today I'm linking up with Shell. Diana talked about needing friends that are always there and it put whatever I was going to blog about somewhere that I've forgotten. It made me go, ya know what?! I have family that does the same darn thing!
So it's no surprise that my hubs family and I don't get along. I had a huge long post written about all the horrific stuff they done to me. The lies, everything. And decided it's not really that, it's the comments. The one "I don't think we can be close because I'm pregnant and you're not", the "You think that having a baby will fix problems in your marriage, it won't." These are the comments that make me want to puke. Make me honestly, want to effing punch someone.

I needed friends when we weren't getting pregnant, and most of our problems revolved around our infertility problems, yes I'll admit it, I let it hurt our marriage. I was so alone though. I felt and still even feel out of place when it comes to blogging, even though I tried to blog to get something. I felt and still feel like I fit in somewhere when I read blogs. I feel like I'm let in on your lives as a friend. I don't have anyone that I can really truly call a friend, outside of family. The friends I started out with from childhood all live in California and I moved to Utah at 16, and only did 1 year of highschool before I graduated. I don't have anyone I can just call up and be like Hey, come over. Hey let's go out. Hey, I'm having a break down. All I've wanted are friends, even if they are from my in-laws. People I could depend on, and all these people have done is criticize and say hurtful things about me. So what if I don't like my husband telling you how much he makes. He makes enough money to pay our mortgage and all the other stuff, so I can be a SAHM. That's all you need to know. Some months we do great, others not so great. You don't need a number. So what if I don't tell you we're trying to get pregnant, or when we plan on having a second one, because I'm scared that it won't happen anytime soon, though we'll probably start next year. So what if I don't tell you guys every detail of everything, or want people in the delivery room. My husband is my secret holder, the one who has seen me at both my best and my worst, I don't need the extra questions the extra worry if you aren't going to ask me questions, call me, or tell me your secrets. It's not a one way street.

I could go on and on about all their drama and such, and I have. I'm working on it though. All I know is, they all live withing 5-10 mins from me, (only one is about 10) the other 3 are very close, and I see them ummm, maybe 5 or 6 times a year. They've been to my house maybe 10 times, and we've lived here for a little over 2 years. No one just calls to do stuff. Heck they can call to see if I want to go grocery shopping with them or call to see if I can talk to them while they clean. My mom, my sisters, brothers and I do that all the time. I just try and try and they say it's me, so I change and still nothing.

I know this post is all over the place. I just can't seem to pour this out enough. My heart just hurts. I have a feeling I'll most definitely be pouring my heart out more often.