PCOS.

If you followed my blog in the very beginning, or ventured back and got to know me better, you'll know that it took us 18 months to get pregnant with Miss A. I saw a RE who though it was PCOS and he put me on Metformin for 3 months to see if that changed anything, and it did. I wasn't able to take it very often, I threw up constantly when I did, but I was able to lose about 10lbs and we got pregnant.

So far since having A I've kept that weight off, I'm about 3lbs heavier than I was before I got pregnant. I've been working out, cut soda out for about a month, and seem to be gaining weight, my face is breaking out & I think I'm seeing some extra hair on my face, sexy right? If you know PCOS those are some signs.

See this whole thing started about a week or two ago when I started breaking out more, which NEVER happens. I figured I'd look up my birth control only to find it's the same as the shot, just lower doses. Acne & weight gain could happen too, so after some contemplation we agreed that I would stop the pill and see if my acne went away and if my weight went down, were going to watch things a week at a time, but I know I need 

to do more, I'm worried about every pound I gain being PCOS. 

It's been about a week since I stopped taking my BC. My face has cleared up and I seem to be losing a little weight, just going back to what I was before. I was also told to take extra Folic acid at my last appointment. Which seems to be making my stomach sick, any suggestions? I take it at night with my prenatal. Not sure what to do. 

Hubs is starting a diet this next week since he's gained about 60lbs since I had A. I wanted to try a PCOS diet plan, at least for breakfast & for dinner a few nights a week, but I can't plan both a plan for him & a plan for me and make them work, he has a very specific plan, and I don't know if I  want to try & make the two work together. It's bad enough I already have to change everything around for him. 

Sounds mean, I know. But without him helping around the house at all, its just easier to not mess with too many things. I know some of you deal with/have dealt with PCOS, any thoughts? Ideas? Help. Ha. 

Hope everyone is doing well. 

PYHO

I'm at a standstill.

I'm just here, waiting.

Waiting to see what happens.

Waiting to see what if I can figure out what to do next.

You see, it's been a year since (almost to the day) that  I had "the talk" with my in-laws.

A year since: I told them about all the lies their favorite sister told, since I told them how much they suck at being in-laws, called them on all the times they broke plans without telling me, how I waited for hours to hear from them and got nothing.

A year since I told them I wasn't outgoing, I kept to myself and don't like everyone in on everything ALL the time. A year since I told them if they would just give me time I would get to know them and things could be better. 

A year since they tried to break up my marriage. A year since they said I only had A to try and save my marriage. A year since they told husband to choose between me & A, and them. A year since I had accepted that my marriage was over because of the group of idiots my husband is related to.

You see, in that year, I opened up my heart and life, to allow them into it, and you know what, I got nothing. No phone calls, no texts, emails, nothing. I wasn't invited to anything, no plans were ever made. Nothing. They live 2 minutes away. They get together. They go out. They make plans. I'm not included.

What do I do? I've talked to my husband. He says I should keep trying with them. I'm over it. I'm to the point that I don't care if A doesn't see them or know them. It's not like they make an effort to see her or know her. I don't know what to do. It's been a year, they haven't changed. I just don't know anymore. Is it even worth it? What would you do?

Happy 2nd anniversary PYHO! 

PYHO: Survive.

Life has been kicking us lately. 

Sky's "on-the-side" income dropped like to nothing out of no where, right when we needed that "extra" money the most. 

It seemed like the bills were piling, up. Wait they were. They were piling up, way over our heads. 

$2000 here. Another $300 there. 

Oh then Sky's student loan payments popped up. Great. That's another $500. 

I tried doing day care, first it was the "demon child" that didn't work out. Then it was Eli, and his dad broke his hand so that took away gym time which took by day care from me. It happens. 

Sky works 74 miles (one way) away from home. He drives 148 miles a day. 

You don't even want to know how much we pay in gas a month, just for his car. 

Okay, to make my point, it's AT LEAST $400, a month. 

Oh and his "great job with potential to move up" was a load of... well ya know. 

He was stuck.

We were stuck. 

What in the heck do we do?! 

There was no way we could survive another month or two. We filed our taxes ASAP so we could get that money and hopefully survive a little longer.

Sky constantly looks for jobs closer to us. He's interviewed at a few places. All of those places wasted his time. Their ads said they would pay what he need but that was a load too. 

Just when we decided to start looking out of state, he got a call. This job would be 29 miles away from home. He could take the train to work.

He got an interview. 

When he got home, he exchanged emails back and forth between the owner, and the guy he would work with. He got another call today.

They want him. They are going to write up an offer and send it to him in the next couple days.

They know what he wants. They can afford it. Now it just comes to  the chase. What can they offer. Why should we choose them? 

Well DUH, we will choose them, anything they can offer is better than his current place.

We're going to survive. 

It's moments like this, that I know someone somewhere is looking out for me.

Link Up!

I know, I already posted today, BUT I found this GREAT link-up and HAD to be a part of it. 

Getting to Know Me.

I started blogging to vent, this was my outlet, I was TTC and it was taking a toll on me. This blog became a journal for me when I was pregnant, capturing weekly updates and now it's all about A and the milestones in her life and whatever the heck else I want to blog about.

I link up. I love link-ups, though lately I'm trying to cut back on them, trying to force myself to write a post without the help of a link-up. 

I'm 22. 

I love chocolate.

Lately I've become addicted to ice cream.

I'm currently dieting, well sort of, I've stopped drinking soda & now work out. 

I love Netflix, it is my only source of TV. I've watched TOO many shows.

Psych.

Army Wives.

Desperate Housewives.

Raising Hope.

Swap People. 

& I just started Grey's Anatomy.

Just to name a few.

I make bows. Check out my Etsy Shop. 

I don't get along with my in-laws and I'm not afraid to talk about them.

I have a very full closet, almost too full.

I have 200 pairs of shoes & love every pair. 

Can't wait to meet some new bloggers!

I Love my Days.

Only 10 (of the many things) I LOVE about my days!

1. I wake up next to my beautiful baby girl & my handsome husband! 

2. That means I get to wake up to beautiful baby girl smiles.

3.  And I get those smiles ALL day long.

4. I also get some mean looks, which I find hilarious! She's good at giving nasty looks, wonder where she got that from?! :)

5.I get to watch my baby girl learn new things 

6. And practice what she's already learned.

7. I get all to hold her as long as I want and I'm almost positive I've never put her down.

8. I get to do everything with my little girl, like going to dinner with my family.

9. And going shopping!

10. And no matter what the day, I get to end it with snuggling with my baby girl, usually watching a show.

3 Day Check Up

We took A to see Dr. O, on Tuesday for her 3 day check up. She was down to 6lbs 2.5 oz. He said everything looked great, and that we were to feed her whenever she wanted. He also let us know that we needed to come back between 10 & 14 days old to do her 2 week check up where they will do the PKU test part 2. Meaning they will stick her little heel and squeeze out blood to cover 7 circles on this piece of paper I have. Blah, I don't know how I'll be able to handle that, I mean shots are fine but drawing blood and squeezing her foot? SJ said it's sad, he saw it the first time it was done and I guess her little lip quivers and she starts to scream. I hope it goes by fast and that I can get her to calm down fast after. I'm so glad Skyler gets to come with me. This was also her first outing since we got home from the hospital!