TTC #2 Update.

I feel like we're officially more than before, back into the TTC game. We've been trying for 6 Cycles now. I go by cycles. Easier for me to remember for whatever reason. 

So last week I wrote this post.

I got a lot of comments encouraging me just to call and ask some questions. That's what I did Monday morning. 

I called. I told the nurse what was going on & she said come in tomorrow morning for a consult with the Doc. Well that's what I did.

It wasn't at all what I was expecting. I was expecting a, "We don't usually see patients until it's been a year". 

I should have known by that call that the whole appointment wasn't going to be what I expected.

I was so nervous, for whatever reason. (I'm sure some of you will understand)
I even heard the nurses talking outside the door, almost sounded like they were making fun of me. Just something about the tone of their voices that nearly made me cry. 

When my doctor came in, he was very straight forward & very clear with his plan. (so nice)
He asked about my previous Dr. visits (pre-pregnancy with A.) 
Said that he wanted to start with Clomid. 

He just took out a card & started writing, telling me that he had a plan.

Day 1: Start
Day 3-9: Clomid
Day 10-17: Try
Day 24: Appt (Oct 2)
Day 30: Pg Test

It was really that simple.
It worked out perfect, I went in on Cycle Day 3, perfect time for blood work,
perfect time to start Clomid. 

On Thursday his office called to let me know that my blood work came back normal.

So now I sit here Day 10 writing this. Listening to giggles & watching my hubs chase my little climber around. We have a plan. It's a new plan. 
I have my doctor on my side. 

This cycle things are already different. I've stopped drinking caffeine and I've also gotten very good at remembering to take my Prenatal, Iron & Folic Acid. 

I don't know if it'll work out this cycle. 
All I know is, we have a plan. 
It will work out when it's supposed to. 

ICLW.

First off, Welcome ICLW'ers! 

So excited to find some new blogs & hopefully find some new friends!

For those of you that don't know what ICLW is, check out the button on the right side of my blog!

  Also while you're there, check out the GFC Blog Hop

I'm super excited with blogging right now! I finally feel like I can do what I want. This blog originally started when I was TTC #1. 

Miss A

Who is now 15 months & is looking forward to eventually having siblings.

Out of habit I describe my blog as "mom after pcos". 

Well I am. I don't know if after is the right phrase. I really don't know much about the whole thing anymore really. I got pregnant a few months after starting Met.formin. I never made it back to the RE because our insurance changed & I was pregnant. I don't know how this is going to affect us with TTC #2. 

We stopped BC in April. I say "we" because hubs agreed it was time to start trying. It has now been 3 cycles since then. I'm currently CD 4, and wonder what this month will bring. This is my first cycle since stopping nursing A 2 weeks ago, it was only 3-6 days late. I say 3-6 because for a while I had 25 day cycles & then a 28 day. So yeah. 

I've read many comments on chat rooms about "being careful after weaning because you're really fertile", as in their husbands looked at them and they became pregnant.

So this is just a little update about TTC #2. I don't post about it much, if at all anymore, because I don't know how most of my readers would feel. Though I am thinking about making a TTC #2 page & updating there, for those that are interested.

I'm trying to post about a wide variety of things. There is so much more to me than just being a mom & TTC. I really hope you stick around and get to know me better. 

Can't wait to "meet" you!

Link Up!

I know, I already posted today, BUT I found this GREAT link-up and HAD to be a part of it. 

Getting to Know Me.

I started blogging to vent, this was my outlet, I was TTC and it was taking a toll on me. This blog became a journal for me when I was pregnant, capturing weekly updates and now it's all about A and the milestones in her life and whatever the heck else I want to blog about.

I link up. I love link-ups, though lately I'm trying to cut back on them, trying to force myself to write a post without the help of a link-up. 

I'm 22. 

I love chocolate.

Lately I've become addicted to ice cream.

I'm currently dieting, well sort of, I've stopped drinking soda & now work out. 

I love Netflix, it is my only source of TV. I've watched TOO many shows.

Psych.

Army Wives.

Desperate Housewives.

Raising Hope.

Swap People. 

& I just started Grey's Anatomy.

Just to name a few.

I make bows. Check out my Etsy Shop. 

I don't get along with my in-laws and I'm not afraid to talk about them.

I have a very full closet, almost too full.

I have 200 pairs of shoes & love every pair. 

Can't wait to meet some new bloggers!

The Scale.

I wasn't planning on writing a post today, I couldn't think of anything to pour my heart out about. Then it happened. I stepped on the scale. No weight gain, nor weight loss. I was still at my lowest pre-pregnancy, TTC weight. I've made it a month with a steady weight. I'm thrilled, makes me feel good. Yesterday I wore my skinny jeans, they fit great, just a little of a saggy tummy, but oh well. They were on, and I could breathe!  

Just the morning before Skyler was saying how we were coming up on starting to TTC #2. Which was on my mind for the rest of the morning, so when the weight thought was running around, it reminded me of the first round of TTC. It was difficult, PCOS is not friendly, though I know I was on the easier side of it. The Metformin was awful, I got so sick, and lost the weight, that they said I might. (I wasn't over weight, I was still in the good range, just had gained 15-20 lbs since I had gotten married.) I was at the number I am at now when I got pregnant. It's just a number. But that number makes me cringe when it goes up, makes me wonder if I'll have to get on Metformin again. I worry about any kind of weight gain. It's pathetic. It hurts. 

I was emailing with someone who is currently TTC #1 and her doctor suggested a counselor for her to see. I wish my doctor would have suggested that. I held it together, mostly, but deep down I was hurting. Too much for me to handle on my own. I'm sure people could tell. I talked to people about it, why didn't someone say something to me? Suggest someone to talk to? 

While going through marriage counseling I told Sky that maybe I needed to talk to someone about the things that were affecting me from my childhood, and he said sure, but it was never brought up again. I wasn't brave enough to bring it up after that one moment of courage.

 I hope if I'm ever in that place again, or near it, someone will speak up. I just want to know why? It's so easy for them to tell others what to do, but when I'm obviously in need of help/suggestion, why didn't they? It hurts to think they wouldn't say anything, but we're all so quick to judge. My in-laws that would be. My family understood, they talked to me, didn't judge, knew what I was going through and tried. But my in-laws, after they knew what I had gone through they continued to judge me. Judge me on past emotions. It's not fair. I'm hurt still, but I now have friends, blog friends, people that listen to me, let me pour my heart out.  

I hope you know, that every comment is appreciated, it makes my day to see you cared enough to say hello.  

Thanks Shell for letting me join you to pour my heart out! 

ABC's

I've decided that I need more things to talk about on this blog. So I decided to use the ABC's, that should give me at least 26 posts, and who knows maybe I'll find a burst of creativity and get more out of it. Anyway I decided that with each letter I'll write something that has to do with our TTC history, Abigail (and this pregnancy) and Skyler & I as a couple. So hopefully 3 things, we'll see how this goes.

A

Adoption. I'm not sure if I ever posted anything about this but Skyler & I were starting to look into adoption. We knew who we'd go with and how much it would cost, we also knew what it was that we would have to do to get there. I know we were only TTC for 18 months but we weren't getting answers, we had no idea what was going on. We wanted to be open to all options even if that meant raising a child that wasn't biologically ours.

A. Her name just came to me. I had never thought of this name before, then one day while I was driving to my mom's it popped into my head and it just seemed right. Since then I've never questioned her name. I know that's who she is.

August. Skyler & I were married August 16, 2008. It was our 8 month dating anniversary. We were going to originally get married August 9th but his sister in law said she wouldn't go because she had her high school reunion that weekend, and had her husband call and tell Skyler that. What a b!tch, right? Who tells someone something like that?! Oh well it worked out better for us.