It's Okay.

After two ear infections and growing 4 teeth, A's schedule is messed up to say the least. Our baby that slept through the night at 5 weeks, was waking up after half an hour in her crib and even when putting her in bed with us, she tossed and turned ALL night and woke up every 1-2 hours.

So we went to the doctors. He checked her ears. Said that her ears looked great, and that it takes a while after being sick to get back into a sleep schedule. At least 2 weeks. 

Okay. Well that began operation "get A to sleep in her crib, all night, again."

It was hard. We are not a "cry it out" household. I just can't do that. 

So I can say that the last few nights, she's slept 5 hours, in her crib.

After that she sleeps in our bed. 

So she's not back to where she was, but it takes time.

It's okay that she only sleeps 5 hours in her crib. 

It's okay that she sleeps with us after that because, I usually end up falling asleep trying to get her to sleep. 

It's okay that we don't CIO at our house. 

It's okay that this might take a while to get her back to her old schedule. 

As for me,

It's okay that I'm skipping working out (again) this morning, so I can catch up on blogs and post something.

It's okay that I've slipped up the last month and had a couple sodas. 

Which reminds me, I do not like soda anymore. YUCK!

It's okay that I agreed to start watching the "demon child" again, even though I'm not sure that I like her.

It's okay that I only agreed to do it because, I didn't know how to tell her mom no.

It's all okay. 

I'm planning A's first birthday. That is not okay. She cannot grow up that fast. It's too fast. 

Someone, PLEASE make it STOP!

Early Eviction?

I'm pretty sure Abigail is ready to join the family. I think she has made arrangements with her "home" my uterus for her to get an early eviction. Darned thing, I didn't think it would agree, but I feel as though it has. The contractions are back, today was unreal. I finally took a pill because I'd get 4 in an hour then it'd stop for a while then they'd come back a couple or just one here and there, finally after taking a pill -even though I'd rather not have to take pills like that, I hate knowing it makes her little heart race like it does mine-- her "home" has relaxed. Skyler has drill this weekend. Friday, Saturday & Sunday, meaning he works Monday, Wednesday & Thursday, I'm afraid that something might happen while he is gone -- though I will be able to call him and he will be able to get home w/in an hour at the most if needed--but I don't trust Abigail or her home lately, they are against me.

I also feel like I can't keep my bladder empty. I swear I pee all the time, but every time I swear it is bursting at the seams. I only have like 4 days and 12 hours till my next appointment, I wish I could say he'll take me off bed rest but with these things -meaning contractions-- still going on I don't see that happening. How long is this going to last?!