Specks...

I feel like I post too much now :) lol. Well at least i'm posting. Yesterday was pretty good, same as always, up at 3am didn't go back to bed till 11pm, had the usual hour of pretty bad contractions then they stop out of no where. Again, I wasn't stressed, dehydrated and my bladder wasn't full. Then later around 5:15 or so I felt a little crampy. Then about 5:20 I went pee and I saw a little speck. Hmmm maybe it was just from my pink underwear... so I check and this time more speck, and a 3rd and 4th time and even more specks, so I showed my mom, and called Skyler and I called L&D and the lady said it was normal. A couple more bathroom breaks and it was the same then stopped completely. But still felt crampy most of last night, and only a little this morning. So far only 1 contraction today that I was awake for, I know I was out cold last night so if any little ones came I didn't notice.

I just think its weird that I would spot and cramp 4 days after my exam. I already had a fair amount of stuff Wednesday early morning and a little brown that day once, so shouldn't it have stopped? I know it stopped now and that's all that matters, and I'll of course talk to the Doc about it but, its just so strange to me that it would wait 4 days! I've been up moving around the same amount every day, I stayed in bed more yesterday than any other day this week. I guess every little thing I'm starting to notice now. I know I'm worrying too much and noticing too much, but it's hard. It's hard just to let things go and say oh whatever. It's always like hmmm... wonder about that? and about that? and that?! Anyway, hope everyone is doing well.

Posting again?!

Yup, I'm at it again. I think this is the most I've posted ever. Though now that I'm stuck on bed rest, which from the looks of it might be the rest of this pregnancy (I'll get to that in a min) I have not much else to do but lay in bed and write. I loved to write when I was younger. Loved the feeling you get from writing it all out, no matter how mean and nasty it was or how useless and senseless it would seem to others. I still love to write, just sometimes don't know how to put things in a different perspective then the negative way I start to post it and let it spiral out of control.

This bed rest thing is hard and its only the start of day #2. I went until 8:27 without having a contraction last night, that was a whole 5 hours! But at the 5 hour mark my body decided it wanted to cause drama. The first contraction came then several small ones, crappy. But it started to slow, but whenever I sit up or stand up straight I get a nice crampy like feeling in the lower abdomen, (not contraction like but crampy more so--maybe it was contractions but they weren't like they were at the hospital so I was fine) well quarter to 10 I decided that it would be best to take the Terbutaline and relax my uterus. I know it started to work because my heart started to race and I'm sure my stomach started to relax a bit. Then I fell asleep. I woke up a bunch to move because down there still felt so sore, and right now as I'm reclined back in bed it doesn't hurt but if I stand up or sit up more than a reclining position it starts to hurt again.

I don't know what to think about any of this. My Dr. says he's sure she'll stay in, and that after a few days rest he'll be letting me do more, but I just don't know. If every time I stand up it gets really sore, not just baby is heavy pressure type sore it's different. And if contractions can come after me drinking so much water and staying in bed unless a pee break is needed and me not feeling stress at all the last couple days... can't they come if he slowly lets me do stuff again? If my body is sensitive now and me doing nearly anything causes at least one, won't being able to do more stuff bring them on? I kinda joked with Skyler that once the 37 week mark hits all I have to do is go take a walk around real fast and we'd have a baby! I'm not sure what to think. I've always thought she would come early, and with the dream from my grandma found under the emotion part of that post, I'm just not sure what to think anymore.

I'll lay in bed all day if that helps her stay in just a day longer, but it's definitely a hard one. Hope everyone is doing well :)