PYHO: Survive.

Life has been kicking us lately. 

Sky's "on-the-side" income dropped like to nothing out of no where, right when we needed that "extra" money the most. 

It seemed like the bills were piling, up. Wait they were. They were piling up, way over our heads. 

$2000 here. Another $300 there. 

Oh then Sky's student loan payments popped up. Great. That's another $500. 

I tried doing day care, first it was the "demon child" that didn't work out. Then it was Eli, and his dad broke his hand so that took away gym time which took by day care from me. It happens. 

Sky works 74 miles (one way) away from home. He drives 148 miles a day. 

You don't even want to know how much we pay in gas a month, just for his car. 

Okay, to make my point, it's AT LEAST $400, a month. 

Oh and his "great job with potential to move up" was a load of... well ya know. 

He was stuck.

We were stuck. 

What in the heck do we do?! 

There was no way we could survive another month or two. We filed our taxes ASAP so we could get that money and hopefully survive a little longer.

Sky constantly looks for jobs closer to us. He's interviewed at a few places. All of those places wasted his time. Their ads said they would pay what he need but that was a load too. 

Just when we decided to start looking out of state, he got a call. This job would be 29 miles away from home. He could take the train to work.

He got an interview. 

When he got home, he exchanged emails back and forth between the owner, and the guy he would work with. He got another call today.

They want him. They are going to write up an offer and send it to him in the next couple days.

They know what he wants. They can afford it. Now it just comes to  the chase. What can they offer. Why should we choose them? 

Well DUH, we will choose them, anything they can offer is better than his current place.

We're going to survive. 

It's moments like this, that I know someone somewhere is looking out for me.

Today.

I'm starting to post just to post. Just to kill time in my day, so my posts are most likely boring and uneventful. Hopefully they'll start to pick up after bed rest if that ever happens. Yesterday I had probably 20 contractions total. In 1 hour I had probably close to 6, took a pill, had 3 more then they disappeared. Had a few randoms here and there, then had quite a few again and had to take another pill later that night. I wasn't even doing anything. Same thing happened today, haven't had as many but I'll just be laying down relaxing, totally hydrated, not stressed, empty bladder and BAM! They start up. I don't get it anymore. They come if I do anything, but come if the situation is perfect (relaxed, hydrated, empty bladder). I don't know what to think anymore.

I am part of a wonderful ward, my Relief Society President stopped by Tuesday, with a counselor I think, and the Secretary calls me all the time, and people I don't remember ever meeting have brought me stuff. It's amazing. I feel so blessed. Any ideas on how to pass the time?

Specks...

I feel like I post too much now :) lol. Well at least i'm posting. Yesterday was pretty good, same as always, up at 3am didn't go back to bed till 11pm, had the usual hour of pretty bad contractions then they stop out of no where. Again, I wasn't stressed, dehydrated and my bladder wasn't full. Then later around 5:15 or so I felt a little crampy. Then about 5:20 I went pee and I saw a little speck. Hmmm maybe it was just from my pink underwear... so I check and this time more speck, and a 3rd and 4th time and even more specks, so I showed my mom, and called Skyler and I called L&D and the lady said it was normal. A couple more bathroom breaks and it was the same then stopped completely. But still felt crampy most of last night, and only a little this morning. So far only 1 contraction today that I was awake for, I know I was out cold last night so if any little ones came I didn't notice.

I just think its weird that I would spot and cramp 4 days after my exam. I already had a fair amount of stuff Wednesday early morning and a little brown that day once, so shouldn't it have stopped? I know it stopped now and that's all that matters, and I'll of course talk to the Doc about it but, its just so strange to me that it would wait 4 days! I've been up moving around the same amount every day, I stayed in bed more yesterday than any other day this week. I guess every little thing I'm starting to notice now. I know I'm worrying too much and noticing too much, but it's hard. It's hard just to let things go and say oh whatever. It's always like hmmm... wonder about that? and about that? and that?! Anyway, hope everyone is doing well.

Yesterday's Appointment

So I had my 3rd OB appointment this week, yesterday. It was a quick one, it was his day off but he stopped in for me. I got my second steroid shot, so her lungs should be developing quite faster now, which I'm glad to know. I want to make sure if my body doesn't relax like it should and she is forced to be here sooner that we've given her a chance to get stronger. After the shot, good ol' Dr M came in.

He asked about the contractions, of course I was still having them at least every 2 hours, told him about waking up in the middle of the night with really bad ones, and his reason was a full bladder. Um really? I can't hold that much in there anymore, I pee ALL the time. I'm obviously relaxed, because they wake me out of a deep sleep! I'm not stressed over anything anymore, as soon as we had to go to L&D I stopped stressing immediately. I don't let anything bother me.

It feels like he is trying to make me feel better. Trying not to stress me out. He wants to keep her in for at least a few more weeks. If he thought so strongly that they would go away and she'd stay in till the end,why did I get the steroid shots? Why am I going in every 3 days for check ups? Why did I get such a large prescription of Terbutaline? 60 pills? I can only take them every 4 hours as needed. They'll last me forever! I'm not worried about any of this, I know Abigail will arrive when she is supposed to, and she will be healthy no matter when that is. I just noticed how he was acting and it was strange. It was different then he usually is. Maybe I'm just being weird because I have more time on my hands? I don't know.