Monday, June 28, 2010

It seems like life has been in a zillion different directions lately. A few posts ago I mentioned that my 16 year old sister was pregnant. She was about 6 weeks along and went to an appointment with her boyfriend's mom and blacked out, so they immediately took her to her doctor and they checked the baby and everything was fine, the Dr. said they miscalculated her due date, and changed it to Nov - end of october, and that brought her up to 4 months along, she said "set up an appointment to find out the sex." as they were leaving the Dr. decided to check the heart beat, and thats when she noticed there wasn't anything. The next day she had a D&C and life is been past that for a bit now. I know how horrible it may sound to her and everyone else but it's the best that she didn't go full term, she's 16, she needs to finish high school and get herself healthy before she even thinks about anything.

Now on to me, Skyler and I are still trying to get the insurance rolling, the military sucks at giving you information on how to do things. Hopefully today we can go to DEERS and get me in the computer get our id's and maybe even get the insurance? We'll see. I just know that pushing out my appointments is starting to wear on me. I just can't stand that I can't go see my doctor without paying $200 for the appointment and $500 for bloodwork. Oh well, there must be a reason to all this madness. My last cycle was 28 days exactly!!! yay! I just hope this next one is a beautiful as that --- only of course if we are not pregnant! but since this is cycle 18 I've started to learn not to expect too much, expect it to be late and slightly get my hopes up but never fully let my heart think I'm there.

I've realized that I don't post very often on here, and I think I should, maybe I get tired of posting about not being pregnant, maybe I don't think I have much to say since we're not seeing any doctors at this point and who really wants to hear much about my "normal" life -- if you're able to even call it that.

This weekend we traveled to St. George for a family reunion, it was wonderful, the weather was perfect and we had a ton of fun. I know what does this have to do with anything right? Well in the last year everyone has gotten pregnant and has had a baby boy, that's right my dad's family is popping boys out like crazy and so is Skyler's family, we're hoping that we'll be able to say GIRL when the time comes, but a boy would be just as wonderful!! But anyway, Skyler pulled me out of the room to tell me that he finally understands how I feel when I say that too many people are getting pregnant and having babies that don't deserve them. Now I know I don't' know everything about everyone but majority of the kids born into my family are "oops babies", now I really don't like to hear people talk like that, its ridiculous, and then there are the ones that think that they have tried forever, and blah blah blah. Anyway it was nice to know that Skyler can finally see hmm it's taking quite a while, and why does everyone else just get it?

So I'm due to start next wednesday, and I will yet again start Metformin, (my stomach has been so sick the last month, I've barely been able to keep anything down, and the stuff I can get down makes me feel awful!) and I'm going to start working out again! I need to keep myself busy or I'll lose my mind!

Anyway, hope everyone is doing well!

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Cycle day... Ummm 14! (Had to check the phone's calendar for that!) So let's start! I started trying to take the metformin again this cycle and it still makes me sick if I even think about taking more than one! I have my appointment on June 7th, but I'm having to rescheduel that to make sure TriCare is up and running! I'm worried what the Dr. will say, I'm trying though, I just can't function if I'm up holding on to the toilet all night, or wanting to die all day. -- I work at an in home daycare, and have at least 8 kids under 5 a day, and there is no way I can feel even the tiny bit awful while I'm here or the kids would eat me alive!!--

Never finished this post but its at least a brief idea of what was going on that day.

Monday, May 17, 2010

A beautiful monday! Besides being called into work, early to cover the other girls shift! Today is CD4, its great to finally be nearly cramp free! I'm going to start taking the metformin again today, only 1 pill each day this week though so I can get my body used to it! I'm excited for this cycle, I have high hopes that this could be the one! (If not next time, I just know its getting close!) Skyler should be signed in this week, and we'll have insurance! Yay!

Now to vent a little! My honey's family is being ridiculous! They are making up lies about skyler and then his older sister of course tried to smooth it over to save herself because she said somethin too! Well he eventually called her and let her tell her side and he said he felt that she said something and he's still hurt and she told him " sounds like someone is poisoning you" WTH?! Who says that?! Grr... Oh well her loss!

Sunday, May 16, 2010

So my period ended up starting Friday which for a change didn't bother me at all! It was nice to know my body is still working fairly well. The cramps were ridiculous though!! I'm glad that part is over... Today is now CD3, which is a step closer to us getting pregnant! We'll be getting our future little one's crib soon! (My brother's little boy has a bed now so we get the crib!!) I can't wait to start putting it together, I know we aren't pregnant and who knows how long it'll take but when it does happen I want our baby to have a beautiful nursery to call their own. Not sure if I posted that my honey lost his job, well we're still looking and we should be back into the military this week so we'll at least have insurance then I want to make an appointment to ask about these horrific cramps I experience! How's everyone else doing? I'll try to get on my computer later and leave some comments, I'm trying to do better at the blogging thing,it'll be a way to journal my thoughts and feelings as we take the bumpy LONG road to having a baby!

Thursday, May 13, 2010

Very Bad Blogger

I've started to drift away again, I don't know why writing usually makes me feel much much better. Maybe because I don't have ANY followers at this point. Well I'm at work right now so I'm on my phone so forgive this post for any spelling issues or any other issues it might have. I believe last time I posted was before my follow-up appointment (April 19th). Well Dr. W said he believes I have PCOS, which does make sense of quite a few things. He prescribed me Metformin (4x a day-- don't remember the mg right now). I started taking 1 that night and threw up 23 times! Needless to say I was done with those stinkin pills but they said to try again friday. Friday I tried them again and was fine and slowly worked up to I believe 3 a day and then on the 2nd started throwing up again. And stopped taking them to relax and figured on the 6th when my period would start I would take them again. Well today is the 13th and no period yet. Took a test the 8th and negative, took a test yesterday and still negative, but no normal period is going to start signs. I started the metformin yesterday and only took two to ease back in and two today so far, maybe I can make it three. I'm keeping the 5 or so pounds off that I lost which is nice, haven't really been bloated at all til yesterday after I took those pills (seems like I bloat after I eat and it goes away then I get hungry and bloat again) maybe TMI right here but usually a few days if not a week before my period everything down there starts to dry up and not dry at all even more non-dry than before!

So for a quick other life update-- my 16 year old sister is pregnant, the military is taking us in loops, and my honey's family has crossed a line and it will take a while to mend things. Also I'm going to try and be more positive about everything.
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